Love Hurtz

long time no update

2005-11-14T19:35:00.000+08:00

long time no update le.. lolx.. cos these few days keep on going out mahz.. hee.. a few more days and O level is done.. hee..i think it it bout 1 weeks plus.. lolx... yeah.. den after tat i can go and find a job to work le.. lolx... nuthin much to update oso.. hee..

hmm... going to 7 months with my dear le.. hee.. a lot of things happen lohx.. but lucky we could go through it..hee.. anyway.. i loving my deardear more and more each day le.. hehe. okie la.. dun tok so much le.. lolx...

[[loving him]]
*missing him now*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu a.k.a toottie a.k.a baobei a.k.a baby penguin a.k.a squirrel*=-

long time no update

2005-11-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

long time no update le.. hee.. cos recently always go out.. haiyoz.. i noe o level le.. but den duno why neh.. jus cant stay at home to study nehx... like cannot be serious at home like tat.. sobsob.. dunno why.. sometimes i think tat going out to study is a better to do .. hehe... but den must have a self control lohx.. if not will be like mi who always end up playing.. lolx...actually not tat bad yet lohx.. lolx...

six month plus passed... i been together with my darling le.. hee... many things happen.. like something tat happened last night... which made the both of us cried..but i glad tat we managed to settle the things.. dear.. i really love hugging u every single moment.. and dear will always remember "liang kuai qian".. lolx.. he shld get wad i mean lohx.. all these 6 months... many thing made us cry.. smile.. laugh...and get angry too..although sometimes things really turn out real bad but in the end.. glad tat we still stick together as one.. that is the reason why i love him so much and he is diff from others..oh ya.. recently i got lot of new nicks from him..hmm... jus wanna tell darling.. i love u!

[[lurbing him] *4eVa lurb*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu a.k.a toottie a.k.a baby penguin a.k.a baobei *=-

haix

2005-10-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

feeling down now...some reasons..dun wish to say...haix...tml is o level practical.. haix...honestly.. i feeling really scare..i dunno why.. the moment i think of Os... my heart feel like jumping out...haix... guess no one understands this feeling bahz...haix..dunno wad to do..my motivation of studying and living on seem to wan to leave mi alone.. haix.. i dunno wad to do le... haix.. dun wish to write anymore... haix

[[missing him]]*lurbing him non stop*

signing off
-=* xiiaozhu a.k.a xiiaotoott a.k.a toottie a.k.a baby penguin *=-

sian

2005-10-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

sianz.. 2dae never go out with dear cos he end sch late.. haiz... but den nvm.. tml can spend the whole day with him.. hee... cos tml is his special day.. hee... ton with him ma.. and his frenz lohx.. hee... missing him now.. haix.. got nuthin to do at home.. i now putting the bathtub.. lolx.. very very long nv use le.. lolx.. den my new house got.. lucky.. hee... sianz.. how i wish i 2dae can go meet dear...haix...

tml i not going sch.. hee.. sianz mah.. bo bian..sianz lehz.... all the lesson so boring de... once a while dun go.. nvm de.. lolx.. okie la.. nuthin much to tok le.. den the bathtub going to full le.. lolx

[[missing him]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu a.k.a toottie *=-

back home

2005-10-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

bored.. missing him now.. haix... guess he still in sch bahz.. hmm.. anyway i oso jus got home niaz.. lolx.. jus now went tamp to eat my lunch lohx.. haiz.. nowadays my wallet like got hole like tat.. keep on no money... haix... dunno why lohx.. sobsob... hmm... missing dear a lot nehz..

nuthin much to write oso.. now my mind is empty.. onli feel like going to bathe.. cos very hot.. lolx... okie la.. go bathe le.. update another time..

[[missing him]] *lurbing him without regrets*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu a.k.a toottie *=-

long time no update

2005-10-05T17:22:00.000+08:00

bOo... ppl.. i am back.. lolx.. but oso not for long la.. these few weeks oso nv come online... no differences to mi le.. lolx... hmm.. prelim over.. haix.. result not tat gd loh.. but den used to it le lah... but will still work harder towards it lohx.. hee.. o level is jus a few weeks later.. so these few weeks will have to work harder le lohx.. hee...

5 months plus with my darling le.. hee.. so many things happened... glad tat we went through them lohx... and dear.. i wanna thx u for wad u did for mi... hmm.. dear.. guess u like the bear tat i gave to u.. hee.. i oso like to hug it.. cos very nice... very cute oso.. hee.. okie la.. dear... if ya see this.. i love u wor.. muackiex

[[lurbing him lots]] *missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu a.k.a toottie *=-

bored

2005-09-22T16:33:00.000+08:00

hmm.. very long nv come update le.. lolx... now i at home lohx.. haix.. cant go out with dear cos tml still gt exams.. sianz.. prelim start le.. haix.. i gave up on my ss and my geo.. hmm.. sobsob... got study a bit nehz.. but den hor.. nuthin seem to get into my brain.. strange.. lolx.. anyway... bu zhi bu jue.. mi and my dear 5 months plus le.. hee.. yeah~ really in love with him.. hee...

hmm... after prelim den it is exams le.. hmm.. sobsob.. den will have less time to spend with dear le.. nvm.. i promise to spend lots of time with him after my exams.. hee... miss ya dear... hope ya miss mi too wor.. haha.. u r mine 4eva... lolx... pai seh... i scare others hair stand.. lolx

[[missing him]]*lurbing him lots*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu a.k.a toottie *=-

sian

2005-09-15T18:23:00.000+08:00

now toking to my darling on the fone.. hee.. very long nv go out with him le..haix... hao xiang ta ar... haix.. hope tml can go out with him whole day loh.. got things to pass to him.. hee.. dunno wad to tok bout.. but one thing is.. i finally finish my dnt le... hehex... thank to all those tat helped mi..hee.. thank dear and frenz... hehe...love all of them...hee..

[[lurbing him]] *missing him*

signing off
-=*xiiaozhu a.k.a xiiaotoott*=-

sianz

2005-09-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

sianz... hmm.. jus bathe.. lolx... jus now went out to do my dnt folio with darling.. hehez... i wanna tell him tat i am sorry wor.. made him so stressed.. hmm.. u noe hor... doing dnt folio is not tat easy after all.. looks easy.. but dun look down on it.. cos it is very confusing.. and very hard to do lohx.. must think like crazy.. and ppl like mi.. no creativity.. lolx... take very long to think of one idea.. hmm.. well.. i oso wanna thankz my dear.. hehez.. so sianz le still pei mi do dnt.. hehe.. thankx u darling.. lolx

hmm... sianz.. holidays going to finish le.. and guess wad.. i haven touch my hmwk yet.. lolx.. bo xim to do oso.. so dun think will be touching them.. lolx.. most is when go back sch den get from frenz lohx.. lolx.. dnt folio monday pass up.. now not even half done.. siaoz liaoz... haiz.. bo bian... jus chiong with it lohx.. hehe.. okie la.. i go do other things le...

[[missing darling]]*lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu a.k.a toottie *=-

back

2005-09-08T19:15:00.000+08:00

i am back... not in gd mood.. horrible mood i can say.. quarell with my mom.. haix...i wished i did left the house.. rather than being stepped on them.. haix.. i really wished i can go out with darling.. haix.. i really wished i could be by his side now..haix..

many things happen during this few weeks.. haix... some happy some sad.. haix.. i jus wanna let my dear noe.. no matter wad happens.. i am with him.. i hope he understand.. he is my onli one.. and i will onli wan him.. haix.. hope he get wad i say..i jus dun wan to see him sad.. i jus wanna apologise to him.. for all the wrongs tat i did.. i am sorry dear...very soon we will be married for 1 month le..haix.. i really treasure every moment with dear... i miss him

[[missing him lots]] *lurb him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu a.k.a toottie *=-

missin dear

2005-08-23T17:03:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus bathe finish.. wanted to go swimming jus now de lehz.. den raining... den when i bathe finish den the rain stop le.. hmm.. playing games with mi siaz.. idiot... nvm.. hmm.. yeah~ my dear back le.. hee... he this mornin went malaysia.. hehe... miss him lot siaz... hmm.. 2dae got nuthin much to tok bout.. hehe.. den i think i tok bout my 4th month anniversary with dear.. hee

4th month anniversary..2oo8o5

dear and mi went esplanade.. hehe... well.. we spent our day there lo.. hee.. at the roof terrace... hee... very sweet lohx.. hee... imagining looking at the nice scenery.. wow... cool nice.. hee... den on 21o8o5 and 22o8o5 we oso go the same place.. hehe.. i jus love the place.. well.. dun tok much le..wanna go upload pic le.. lolx..

[[missing dear]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-08-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus got home..now jus waiting for darling to reply mi.. hmm.. jus now went swimming with my frenz.. lolx... fun nehz.. but den nv managed to get darker in colour.. lolx.. dunno why i wanna get darker in colour nehz.. lolx...

den after tat i went out with my darlin... hmm... with andy oso.. lolx.. go see them play arcade... hee... hmm... nuthin much to write 2dae.. hehe.. i jus wana go upload the pics we took 2dae.. lolx

[[missing him]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

bored

2005-08-17T18:39:00.000+08:00

hmm.. very siianz.. got nuthin to do now.. been using the comp for some times le.. but den is really got nuthin for mi to do nehx.. dunno wad to do.. hmm.. my dear now slacking so wont be calling him for the meanwhile.. let him go rest first.. hmm.. looking for ger frenz of mine who wanna go swimming.. hehe.. i warmly welcome u all.. lolx.. gers interested come msg mi or call mi.. lolx.. i dun mind wor.. lolx... hmmm.. sianz

hmm... mi and dear this sat going to 4 months le.. hehe.. so happy... hmm... mi and dear went through a lot of things wor.. hehe.. but i am glad tat we still held on strong.. hehe.. and the love in between us become stronger and stronger.. hehex... mi everyday in class keep drawing dear and mi de name.. haha.. i think my frenx see le oso buay tan han ar.. lolx.. but den bo bian mahz.. in class too sian le.. den i like to draw our name oso mahz.. lolx... okie la.. i go do other things le.. hehe.. needa go prepare present le.. lolx

[[lurbing him without regret]] *missin him*

signing off
-=* xiiaozhu a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-08-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus bathe ... now waiting for dear to go home.. hehez.. den he will call mi.. lalala~. 2dae in sch very sianz.. almost fell aslp during lessons.. hehez... used to it le bahz.. hehez...hmm..jus tok bout him den he sms mi le.. hehez....

hmm.. suay arh.. jus now saw one of my ex... sianz... was trying to siam him lohx.. but den hace care la.. lolx... dun take him as a matter anymore.. lolx.. jus now went to tamp to eat 2gether with PL and SM.. lolx.. den after tat go shopping loh.. oso not much thing happen.. hehez

hmm.. eash day passes... the more things happen between mi and dear... sometimes things which made us stronger.. sumtimes things which made us weaker.. but no matter wad.. we will still be 2gether.. hehex.. at least we do tok to each other bout our problemz... hehez.. i am glad we do.. hehe... going to 4 months le.. hehe.. yeahz..

[[lurb him]]*missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

not yet aslp

2005-08-14T00:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.. not yet aslp... hmm.. 2night didnt tok to darling.... hmm... sianz.. anyway nuthin to do now.. no la.. actually watching the tv now loh.. actually my dad dun let mi come online de.. cos the net spoilt... hehe..lucky he fixed the things le... lolx...

hmm.. 2dae went to parklane to look for darlin lohx.. hehe.. den we at the play comp.. hehe.. den went to suntec to see the rest play arcade lohx.. hehe.. den mi and dear went to play para para and DDr.. lolx... den after tat went walking lohx... hmm.. evo ix very nice lehx.. hehe.. dear and mi got plan next time wanna buy wad car.. lolx... a bit too early hor? but den nvm la.. lolx... okie la.. go do other things le.. hehez... wondering if dear slp le not...

[[missing dear lots]] *lurbing dear*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

hmm.. sick

2005-08-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

hmm... jus come home.. hehe... jus now went out with karen den later on went out with my dardar... hehez... we and karen went tamp lohx.. hehe.. actually went there to eat oso.. hehe.. den after tat went to my house.. lolx.. den after tat we went to tamp againz lohx.. hehe... den i took a train to meet my dardar at bugis lohx.. hehex.. he always the same.. play arcade.. lolx.. used to it le.. lolx.. den from bugis we walked to suntec.. den at the arcade... very qiao.. saw my didi there.. lolx.. yesterdae jus toked to him on the fone onli den 2dae saw him and his stead le.. lolx.. but honestly.. i got shocked by him lo.. cos he was playing initial D den dardar was playing MT... den the machines is jus next to each other.. den suddenly someone like kinda hit mi from the initial D machine.. den i was shocked den i turned to look at him jus to realised tat it was my didi.. lolx... so qiao lohx... haha... hmm.. not long later den he left first lohx.. lolx... dardar will always many rounds de so i used to it le.. lolx.. den after tat i ask dardar play para para den i stand one side and learn.. lolx... hmm... guess tat i can onli learn this way.. cos very pai seh mahz.. hehez...

hmm... hao kuai wor.. bu zhi bu jue.. wo he dardar jiu 3 months plus le going to 4 months plus le... lolx... aug 11 is oso a special date for mi and dardar.. lolx.. those who wanna noe can ask mi.. hehez.. hmm.. wonder wad will happen on 20 aug nehz.. hehez...*wondering*

[[missing him]] *lurb him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-08-11T17:46:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus bathe finish niaz lohx.. sianz.. sick le.. haiz.. keep on running nose den keep on blowing nose... now nose pain pain le.. hehez... hmm.. i miss my dear.. hehez.. nuthin much to say 2dae.. hehe.. update another day..

[[lurb him]] *miss him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

national day

2005-08-10T12:56:00.000+08:00

hmm... sian... 2dae holidae.. at home got nuthin to do.. sianz...hmm... since i online.. i come and share wad happen yesterdae.. hehez... feel very sweet.. lolx

yesterdae was national day as everyone noe.. hehex...mie and dardar went to chinese garden in the early afternoon to pick xiang si dou... hehez... spent bout 3 hours bahz... hehez..or was it 2 hours... hehez.. and we picked up 393 xiang si dou.. hahaz.. i counted it last night.. lolx... and placed it inside a glass coke bottle tat mi and dardar last time at esplanade drink de.. hehex... but onli 1/4 filled niaz.. hmm.. nvm.. still will chance to go there and pick up more de.. hehex....

den after chinese garden.. we went to marina bay to watch the fireworks.. hehez.. we at the carnival walk walk.. hehe... ate food.. den went walking.. hehez.. very romantic bahz? lolx.. jus kiddin.. hehe.. den we walk until one field den got a lot of ppl... we watched the fireworks there.. hehez... very nice.. took two pic of it.. hehexz... hmm.. den after tat we went scrolling lo.. hehe.. den went to the concert by the bay.. saw jue dui superstar.. lolx.. actually is dardar purposely bring mi go watch de.. hehe.. thank u dardar.. hehez... hao ai ni wor.. hehez...

[[hao ai dardar]] *missing him now*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

hehez....

2005-08-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

hmm... 2dae in sch got national day celebration... hmm.. mostly was singing lohx.. lolx.. den my "laogong" karen kinda went too high le.. lolx.. very crazy woman.. lolx... but den nvm la.. she still is my best frenz.. lolx... den after the concert... got so call fun fair lohx.. lolx.. nuthin much to buy lohx.. den got lots of food.. but honestly.. it was very hard to find sumthing to drink lo.. haha... got find some.. but not confident in their drinks.. lolx.. so end uo nv buy any drinks lohx.. but mostly i buy food from the booth of cannoeing.. lolx.. cos my karen is there selling mahz... den must support her CCA u noe.. lolx...

hmm.. jus finish bathing onli.. hehez... 2dae went out witth darling... was supposed to go out with my classmates to go watch movie de.. but was last mins cancelled... many who said they were going end up not going.. not steady de lo... hmm.. made the organizer very irritated... hmm.. well... becos he kinda complain to mi.. lolx... but anyway.. i went to look for my darling and his frenz at suntec arcade lo.. our old place.. lolx.. almost every weekend they will be there de lohx.. lolx... hmm.. den after tat mi and darling went to simei.. hehex... go to the animal safari to see puppy and doggy.. hehe.. my dardar and mi de dream is when we get married.. we will buy a dog and take gd care of it.. hehez.. tat is part of our dream.. hehe... the dogs there are really very cute lohx.. hehe.. how i wish i could jus carry one home.. hmm.. but too bad.. not time yet.. lolx.. cos my parents wont let de mahz.. bo bianz.. their pattern.. lolx

hmmm... tml in national day le.. lolx... hmm...most likely will be going to esplanade to see the fireworks.. lolx... with who..? maybe my dardar bahz.. lolx.. hmmm.. okie la.. i go play games le.. lolx.. if i can find some games to play lohz.. lolx..

[[missing him lots]] *lurbing him with no regrets*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

grounded

2005-08-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

haix...cant go out anymore le... cos i am grounded... haix.. cos of a stupid mistake.. haix.. last night i cried like crazy.. haiz.. but lucky i had my frenz and my dar by my side... haiz.. last night i slept at 4 am... from 11 to 4... i was crying like crazy.. hmm.. tats why 2dae my eyes cant really open fully... haix... cant go out 2dae.. not used to it siaz... always i will go ouot on weekends de den 2dae cannot go out.. haiz... i miss my darling.. wondering wad is he doing now.. hmm... haix...

yesterdae i really made my parents heart broken.. haix.. my mom cried... and so did my dad.. haix... i am all the fault... i dunno wad to do to make them happier.. haix... guess i wont say much le bahx.. haiz

[[missing dar]] *lurbing him lots*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

hmm.. back again

2005-08-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

hmm.. back againz...hehe... very long nv come online le.. den yesterdae is in a rush.... cos was quite late le.... so bo bian lo.. hmm.. missed the comp lehz.. hehe.. hai hao lahz... hmm..hehe

yesterdae was anna's birthday.. hehe.... very fun wor... cos we purposely forget her birthday den make her very sad.. hehe.. den give her a surprise.. hehe.... fun wor.. but too bad.. got realised by her when we were bout to scare her.. lolx... no fun de... den we all stunned.. lolx... hehe...

hmm.... 3 months plus with my darling le.. hehe.. going to 4 months le.. hehe... still lurb him as much as usual.. hehez... missing him now

[[missing him]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-08-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

sianz... now staying in new house le.. sianz.. haiz... moved to pasir ris lohx... hmm. still not used to it .. anyway very long nv come online le cos moving house den busy ma.... somemore they never fix the net oso..... haiz... i duno wad to tok bout le... i need to call my dear..

missing him lots....

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-07-21T19:27:00.000+08:00

hmm.. sianz sia.... now packing the stuffs in my room into boxes.. sianz... haiz.. going to shift house this sat.. haiz... from bedok move until pasir ris.. sianz.. so far away... hmm.... now den realised tat my room got lots of things siaz... haiz... dunno lehz.. a lot of memories here.. and all those old stuffs sure bring lots of my memories...

2dae didnt message dardar much cos his bro went to fix his fone... cos i made it spoilt the other day.. althought dardar say it is not my fault.. but i still think it is my fault mahz.. anyway.. still it was mi who dropped it on the floor mahz.. hmm.. den whole day didnt message him.. wonder where he is now.. haiz.. missing him lots le... not used to it lo... so long didnt message him... hmm.. really missing him a lot.... hope dardar will call mi 2night.. hmm.. maybe i will call him first bahz....2dae i in class miss him until i use permanent marker to draw his name and 2 chinese words.. lolx.... i wrote "shi nian" which means missing him...hmm.. i am really missing him...

i wanna thx seok mun wor.. lolx... she 2day come my house help mi pack my stuffs.. hehez... oh ya.. i wanna thx all my frenz who are coming tml to help mi pack my stuffs wor.. hehez.. thank u guys very much.. lurve ya all.. muackiez.. hehez... when think of moving house this saturday... sure brings my mood down.. i dunno why.. until now i still dun feel like shifting house lohx.. maybe cos this house i am now still living in sure carries a lot of my memories since i was young.. all the fights and quarrels in the family... all the happiness and birthdays celebrated all in this house.. wonder when can i ever get used to the new house.. haiz.. and one more thing is.... i need to take a lift up my house.. and actually... i am afraid of taking the lift by myself.. haiz.. bo bian.. have to overcome this fear... jia you bahz...!

[[missing my dear darling lots]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

bored

2005-07-19T19:06:00.000+08:00

hmm.. sian.. 2dae in sch keep on slping.. lolx.. like piggy like tat.. jus nice... my nick is oso xiiaozhu.. hmm.... i miss my dardar.. hehe... 2dae de weather very cold wor.. dunno why nehz... hehez... keep on raining.. sianz de nehz.. bo bian...

dunno wad to write nehz.. i guess i will update it another time bahz... haiz.. sianz...
i miss my dardar lots.. hope he is by my side now...

[[missing dardar]] *lurbing him lots*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

hehe...

2005-07-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. 2dae went to the walk and jog thingy.. man.. boring..lolx... bt nvmla.. sure had some fun witht my frenz mahz.. lolz... slapping butts as we walk.. lolx.. and i can be very sure tat we walked more distance than the rest... cos... we from c3 carpark walk until f2... and... guess wad... it is supposed to start at f2.. and onli a loop.. argh~ made us walk so long.. lolx.. den when we finished.. we went to the seaside.. shiok.. oh ya.. we were at east coast.. lolx.. the wind very big and nice lohx.. hehe.. sure enjoyed the wind.. lolx..

after tat... we went to bedok to eat.. hehe.. den i met dardar.. hehe... den went simei safari see pets.. lolx.. den sounds quite bo liao la... cos we went back to east coast.. lolx... hmm.. sure had a great time with him there.. lolx..hmm... jus came home not long ago..hehe.. now very full.. cos finish eating durians.. lolx...hehe..... well.. wont tok much le.. cos now got other things to do.. hehe

[[missing darling]] *lurbing him wholeheartedly*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

back again

2005-07-16T11:55:00.000+08:00

hmm.. quite some times didint come onlline to update blog le.. lolx... cos thee few days quite llate den come home mahz.. hehe.. cos went out with dardar... hmm.. yesterdae went orchard with dardar.. hehe... den we all went walk walk lohx.. hehe... quite fun wor.. lolx.. we two like siao lang like tat .. lolx... maybe tat is wad tat made us have fun bahz.. lolx...

u noe hor.. yesterdae got o level listening comprehension... and guess wad happen.. i fell aslp... lucky is when the passage repeat den i fall aslp ar.. if not i confirm cry like hell de... hm... hehe.. bo bian.. slpy mahz.. lolx

hmm... 4 more days and mi and dear 2gether for 3 months le.. lolx... time passes very fast wor.. hehez..... i glad tat i am with dear.. hehe.. sure make mi realised many things.. hehe.. jus wanna thanks dear for being with mi... i sure will treasure u de wor.. hehez...

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

heartbroken

2005-07-13T19:01:00.000+08:00

haiz... cant help tears from falling from my eyes... haiz...he decided on a decision which i dunno why would make mi shed tears..he is still with mi..i am glad tat he is..but the decision he made...really made mi shed tears... other than the water coming out from the shower... my tears followed the flow of the water..haiz.. i really hope tat he could forget the decision he made.. i really hope so.. haiz..no idea why it affects mi so much..but my tears jus wouldnt control themselves.. and they escape from my eyes..haiz...dear...if u see this... can u forget the decision u made mahz?i really really hope tat u forget tat decision of urs...haix...waitin for ur answer...

2dae stayed back in sch until 6 for dnt..haiz..boring lohx.. but at least now i got sumthing to do.. and the motivation is kinda more than the holidays when i dun even feel like doing anything at all.. lucky i got the help from frenz and my teacher... if not i think i would be stuck forever...honestly... i really very tired these few days.. i no idea.. no matter how much slp i get.. i still get very tired.. haiz... i dunno why..even most of my frenz say tat i like very tired these few days.. like wanna die wanna die like tat.. maybe bahx.. i really dunno wad is going on and wad is happening to mi..haiz...guess time will tell bahz..i jus wanna say sorry to all my frenz.. if i happen to show my temper to any of u all these few days.. i dun seem to be able to control my temper now like how i used to last time..i really dunno wad is going on.. so if i happen to show my temper to u or wad... pls forgive mi.. or if u wan.. can give mi a slap to wake mi up oso... i promise i wont hit u back.. but i will instead thank u...sound crazy huh.? well.. jus to say.. i am...hmm.. dun wanna say anymore le...time to dry up my tears... if onli i could...

[[missing dear]] *hope dear forget decision*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-07-11T16:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. just got home onli lohx.. hehe.. jus now went to eat with my frenz and dardar at bedok first.. hehe.. den after tat went to NTUC to buy things lo.. haha.. we spent a lot of time there ar.. haha... u noe.. some choosy ppl.. lols.. jus kiddin but i think they will noe who i mean.. lolx...

this is to dardar:

dardar...i hope tat everything will be well between we two.. okie..?hmm.. i treasure every single moment tat we are together wor.. really.. hehe.. and i oso ensure tat the promise tat i made.. i will keep it.. really i will... must trust mi wor.. hehez.. okie la... last but not least.. jus wanna tell u tat.. i lurb u... hehez... other see le will hair stand wor.. lolx

[[too in lurb with him]] *missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-07-09T11:36:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus woke up not long ago.. hehe.. now waiting for parents to come home to bring mi back my breakfast den after tat i can go out le.. hehe.. later going to meet my dardar.. hehe.. go where oso dunno ehz.. cos we always go everywhere until sian le.. hehez...hmm... dunno wad to do now lehz... now watching tv and playing comp at the same time nehz.. hehe

time passes really very fast wor.. a few more months and O level is here.. haiz.. i scare nehz.. cos i haven realy revised anything yet lohx.. haiz... but den i guess i will really put in all my heart to study hard lohx.. hehe.. with the support of my frenz and my dardar.. i guess i will be able to do it.. hehez... hopefully bahz.. i will jia you de wor.. lolx.... to those who see this.. maybe u r can help mi in studies wor.. hehez.. thk u wor... hehe.. now i still busy with my DNT... haiz.... teacher change a lot of things... so bo bian lohx.. have to redo it lohx... hai... k la.. i go do other things le.. hehez...

[[missing him]] *lurbing him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

scary...

2005-07-08T15:36:00.000+08:00

hmm.. quite a few days never come online to update blog le.. hehe.. wooo.. jus came back from sch lohx.... had to stay back cos of chinese o level oral.. oh man.. scary.. well.. i couldnt stop my usual habits.. lolx.. said a few eng words... hope the teachers didnt realised.. lolx.. haiz... o level coming le... very scared nehz... dunno why nehz.. everytime think of it will make mi scare scare de ... haiz... but well.. i will jia you de.. hehez

hmm... these few days seldom will meet dear le.. cos of diff time table.. but well.. it is okie.. hehe.. we still got lots of times together... hehe... well.. i not sure wad i wanna write le.. hehe.. when i tot of more den i think i will update more againz.. hehe.. oh ya... 2dae's my dad birthday.. lolx.. he old one more year le.. lolx

[[lurbing him]]*missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

bored..

2005-07-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

hmm.. quite some time never come online and update my blog le.. hehez.. jus finish bathing.. cos jus came back from sch onli.. hehe... dunno how to write nehz... i injure my ankle... sianz.. but den lucky not serious lo.. but onli when walk den will pain a bit lohx.. hehez...

hmm... for the past few days i been always going out with dardar lo.. hmm.. well.. bu zhi bu juan we 2gther for two months plus le.. well.. it may sound short but i guess we sure experience many things lohx... hmm.. yeahz.. i jus lurb my dardar... hehez... k la.. i go play game le...

[[missing him]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-06-30T17:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus finish bathing onli.. sianz ehz.... jus now stay back in sch for dnt.. haiz.. sianz.... every tuesdae and monday.. sianz sianz sianz! monday is the day tat i always go out with dardar de lehz... den now every monday need to go dnt... sianz.. haiz.. bo bian lo.. have to wait until i finish doing le den can go out and play lohx... haiz...

2dae dunno why my mood not so good nehz.. a lot of ppl kena scolded by mi... canot blame mi bahz... when i not in a gd mood i will tend to show my temper more lohx... bo bian... lolx.... anyway to those who kena scolded by mi.. sorrie nehz.. hehez.. hmm.. jus now go dnt so sianz... haiyo.. but den lucky time passes very fast lo.. if not i confirm will rot de lo.. cos go there got nuthin to do oso lo.. need teacher help but den dunno where teacher run to.. sianz..suddenly my finger nail very shiny lehz.. lolx.. cos i 2dae at dnt a bit siao.. use the sand paper make.. lolx.. den dunno use wad den it become very shiny lo.. lolx... i dunno wad to write le... guess i go watch tv le bahz.. hehez...

[[lurbing him without regrets]] *missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-06-28T16:36:00.000+08:00

sianz.. 2dae dunno why whole hand like no strength siaz.. duno why.. sianz.. hmm.. 2dae go sch very sianz lo.. feel lik slping all the time.. all becos of stupid journal lohx.. do until siao.. den end up.. all nv pass up... argh~ qi si ren le.. argh~ den end up i slept very late last night lohx.. argh~den this morning didnt feel like going to sch lo.. imagine how tired and sian i was.. haiz.. but den bo bian lo.... den 2dae stayed in sch until 3 plus.. cos of class photo taking lo.. sianz de lo... stay until so late jus becos of this.. bo bian lo.. anyway.. this yr oso last yr le... so nvm lo.. lolx.... sch is so boring.. haiz.. jus start sch onli and i am already complaining le.. haiz...

hmm... wondering wad my dardar doing now.. he now still in sch.. hehe.. dun think will be meetin him these few days lo.. cos diff time table.. and somemore i cannot go out until too late mahz.. so bo bian lo.. but den nvm la.. i will wait.. hehe.... i miss my dardar

[[lurbing him lots]] *sch is boring*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

hehe

2005-06-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

2dae went to watch movie with dardar... initial D lohz.. lolx.. i intending to watch another time.. lolx.. with my frenz.. hehe... but den dunno which day yet lohx.. lolx... the show very nice lohx.. hehe.. the way they drive.. lolx... some parts quite funny oso lohx.. lolx... gd show.. lolx.. never regret watching it.. lolx

den after watch le went to jurong to look for dardar de frenz.. lolx... a bit stupid.. go there le den they wanna go off le... den mi and dardar went his grandma house there... of cos i nv go up.. pai seh u noe.. lolx... den after tat went to suntec.. see them play arcade.. lolx... and i saw one guy who is used to be the CIP there de.. lolx... den after tat mi and dardar went bugis to eat.. lolx.. den go back eunos le lohx.. lolx.. den on train.. we train on our love song.. lolx.. "chuang wai" hehe... now i noe how to sing le.. yeah.. lolx... now waiting for dardar to reach home.. hehez... okie la.. i think i go play game le.. lolx

[[thinking of him]] *lurbin him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-06-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

hehe.. 2dae went out with my dardar.. he pei mi go and do my homework.. lolx... but.. well.. didnt do any homework.. lolx... too lazy le.. bo bian.. lol... bring all the wrong work out.. how to do.. lolx... haha.. den end up we went to reservoir lohx.. lolx... go there catch the tortise.. lolx.. i catch den put back.. i think i caught bout 5 bahz.. lolx... den we at there sit sit tok tok... very nice... cos very cooling.. lolx.. den we went to eat.. den after tat walk back my house lohx.. lolx... sure had a fun time with dardar.. lolx.. keep on running here and there.. lolx..

hmm.. well... i jus wan some ppl to noe tat... i cant be bother bout wad u think bout mi..? u wan.. u go ahead and make comments in my tagboard.. and pls la.. if u wanna make comment.. put down ur name la.. why..? scare ppl to noe who u r ar? hum ji izzit? dare do den dare admit la... wad is the use of puttin ur name as anonymous..? scary cat.. haiz... i jus hate this kind of ppl...

[[lurbing him]] *missing him lots*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-06-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

hehe...2dae went out with karen they all.. we went to the old factory tat we used to work at.. lolx.. went there to eat.... hehe.. den after tat went karen house to pass her mom the food.. lolx.. den after tat they pei mi go see doctor lo.. first time noe tat cough is use pills de..lol... but den nvm... still need to eat...

den after tat went to meet my dardar.. hehez.. went to bugis den met andy den play arcade.. den after tat we went to redhill market to eat.. den went to a nearby playground to tok and sit sit lo.. haha.. quite fun lohx.. hehe... dun feel like saying much le.. i now toking on fone.. lolx...

[[missin him]] *lurbing him*

signin off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

haiz..

2005-06-21T14:06:00.000+08:00

haiz.. still sick.. sianz... cough until heart there oso pain lohx.. haiz...bo bian lo.. have to wait till recover.. haiz.. now not really in the mood to update blogs..haiz..sumtimes i feel tat dardar and mi..things between us.. really is kinda bad lo...dunno why..haiz... dunno wad to do ar...like now.. i actually sheding tears while typing this.. sumtimes i really hope dear can stop the way he is thinking bout things lohx..but i really dunno how to change the way he think bout things lohx.. haiz...i really really hope tat i can do sumthing bout it loh.. haiz...dun wanna tok bout it le...haiz

2dae wont be going out with dardar cos he got lesson in the afternoon and summore my mom already dun let mi go out le cos i everyday go out.. non stop de.. so they dun let mi go out le lohx.. haiz..nvm la.. sch going to reopen le lohx.. thinking of tat.. make mi sianz 1/2 le lo.. i haven even touch my hmwk yet.. haiz.. no mood to do lohx...hack care la.. see when i free den i go and do lohx...dun wanna tok so much le... really is no mood le..

-`zhen de bu neng shi qu ni *

[[zhe de heng ai ta]]*missing him*
signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

2nd month anniversary

2005-06-20T23:23:00.000+08:00

hehe.. 2dae mi went out with dardar.... our 2nd month anniversary.. hehe... den we went to tamp to meet first.. hehez we took 65 to plaza singapura.. hehez... den we went to play arcade.. lolx.. actually is go there look for frenz lo... den end up go there den my fren go do other thing.. dun care bout us at all.. feel like killing him siaz.. lolx

hmm.. i really very happie with this deardear of mine.. hmm... he seem to understand mi more than anyone lohx.. hehe.. he can noe wad i wan jus by my eyes.. hehe.. i jus love him.. hehez... love him...

cant write much le.. my dad wanna slp le.. need to off comp le.. hehez...

[[lurve him so much]] *missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoot a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

still sick...

2005-06-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

haiz.. still sick... haiyo.. but seem like my cough is getting worst den the other days.. dunno why.. maybe cos i still drink cold drinks bahz.. hahaz.. notti hor mi? hmm.. but den dun worry..now got xiiaoblur can help mi control lohx.. hehe.. we control each other to not drink cold drinks lohx.. hehez... a very gd way of doing things.. hehez

yesterdae went to escape with my frenz and xiiaoblur... hehez..sad case... sick den play a bit onli den feel giddy le lohx.. haiz.. wasted lohx.. but most it.. i did have fun.. hehez.. hmm.. not going to tok much bout it...

hmm... 2dae went out wif dear and his frenz lohx.. hehez... mi and dear went to hougang first to play DDR.. lolx.. a bit bo liao bahz? bo bian... the version we wan onli there got niaz.. den bo bian lohx.. den we go there to play lohx.. lolx.. den after tat we went to suntec to look for his frenz lohx.. den see them play MT.. hmm.. they from 4.3o hor.. play until 9 plus arhz... li hai hor? lolx.. bo bian.. who ask them to have so much money to play.. den i sianz sianz stand there see them play.. lolx.. but den nvm la.. dardar oso got pei mi tok mahz.. lolx... hmm.. i jus bathe finish niaz.. hehe.. jus now father came to fetch mi from suntec.. lolx... den coss haven eat dinner... went to buy porridge to eat lo.. den jus now bathing... vomited half of wad i ate.. lolx... sianz lohx.. haiz.... bo bian.. sick mahz.. wad to do.. hahaz... okie la.. i dun think i wanna tok much le.. lolx...

[[missing dear]] *lurbing him more *

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sick

2005-06-17T21:08:00.000+08:00

wow.. sian arhz.. jus got home.. jus now went out with karen to pei her get her mag lohz.. hmm.. 2dae not in a very gd mood to type blog nehz... still sick.. now coughing like hell.. dunno why oso nehz.. haiyoz.. later going to drink more warm water le.. haiz..

2dae after lesson i went to redhill to meet my dardar.. hehe.. we went to have lunch 2gether.. hehez... den after tat went to a blk meet andy den went to find a place to sit and chit chat lohx... hmm.. 2dae oso nuthin much lohx... hehe.. i think i will tok more tml.. tml going to escape with dardar they all.. hehez.. should be confirm le.. hehez... gdgd.... lalala~ okie.. i think i go upload the pics i took with dardar le.. hehe..

[[lurbing him more]] *missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sick

2005-06-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

haiz.. sick sick sick... mi sick.. dardar oso sick... haiz.. dunno izzit tat we spread to each other de nehz.. but den dear is more sick den mi arhz.. haiz... i guess is becos tat time at east coast play with the sea bahz.. maybe bahz.. den come up le never have any towel or ways to make our self dry.. haiz... hope dear can get well soon lohx.. dear is really sick until mi see le very xin tong loh... haiz...

2dae went back to sch for maths lesson... hmm.. time passes quite fast.. gdgd.. lolx.. we were busy doing maths worksheet.. maybe tat is why the time passes real quickly.. den after tat went to bugis to meet dardar.. hehe... den went to bugis street there to pei dear to buy medical tea lohx.. wow.. very ex loh... $6 lehz... but if it works den it is worth it lohx.. but den it seems tat it doenst do any diff to dear lehz.. haiz.. dunno la.. lousy de siaz.. haiz... den saw karen and the rest at bugis.. den after tat we went to tampines to find karen they all lohx... den see them play aracde.. hehez.. den after tat all went home lohx.. oso not much thing done lohx.. onli tat we play at the so called playground at the open atrium at tm lohx.. hehe... den after tat dear and mi went to my area there.. sat under a blk and i let dardar slp lohx.. hehe.. hoping tat he would feel better.. didnt make any diff.. haiz... hope he get well soon lohx.. now waitin for dardar to reach home.. i very scare tat anything will happen to him lohx.. hope nuthin will... i miss dardar

[[worried for dardar]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz arh

2005-06-15T10:50:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus woke up... haiz.. but feeling unwell siaz... got block nose... cough... slight fever.. sianz... haiz.. dunno why suddenly like tat sia.. haiz... maybe cos yesterdae play with water den blow wind bahz

yesterdae mi and dardar went to east coast..hehe... starting we all walk around.. hehez.. den we sat on one of the rock.. hehe... looking at sea.. hmm.. tat time feel very relax...but sure to think of a lot of unhappy thing lo.. hmm... den after tat dear suggest go play water.. lolx... we took off our slippers and things den go and play le.. lolx... dear hor.. very funny lo.. play until half way den realised.. wallet and sweet never take out.. den everything become wet le.. lolx... mi and dear had a lot of fun lohx.. lolx... we saw one small little fish and we even tried to catch it.. haha.. but we failed to catch it lohx.. lolx.. den after tat dear sabo mi arhz... hug mi den push mi down to the water... haiyo....very notti wor..lolx.. but den we sure did have lots of fun lohx.. hehe.. i love every smile of dear hehez.. very nice... sweet.. hehe... den after tat cos raining and lightning den we all get up lohx.. den we sat at one of the chair to dry up... den we chat bout many things lohx.. hehe... den we went to scroll le.. lol.. actually partially is hunt for food oso.. lolx.. den at the "foodcourt" we order stingray and fried rice.. like tat hear like very little hor.. haha~ wrong le wrong le... a lot lohx.. haiyoz.. den mi and dear si bei full arhz.. lolx.. den after tat we went to take bus le lohx.. hehe.. but i is take bus go bedok.. dad fetch mi home.. hehe.. i really enjoyed this day lohx.. hehe.. very long never see deardear so happy le.. hehez.. i love deardear de smiles...

[[missing deardear]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

jus woke up

2005-06-14T12:03:00.000+08:00

yawn~ jus woke up an hour ago.. hmm.. now waiting for my dardar to wake up onli lohx.. hehe... later going east coast with him.. most probably is to go cycling lohx.. hehe.. but den he now still slping i guess.. hmm... maybe cos last night chat with him on the fone until quite late mah tat why he still slping bahz.. hehe... hmm... sianz lehz holidays... haiz.. my parents now keep nagging at mi saying tat i keep on going out den nv stay at home and do homework de... den say wad.. i always so late den go home all these and tat lohx... hear le oso sianz arhz.. buay tan han but den bo bian lohx... still have to listen to them lohx.. sianz de lehz... wonder when den they will give mi the freedom tat i wan siaz.. haiz.. dunno must wait until wad age arhz.. haiz...

6 few more days and it is mi and dardar de two month anniversary le.. hehe.. time passes so fast siaz.. so far.. mi and dardar went through a lot lohx... happiness.. tears... and lots more lohx... each time we try to solve our problem by toking to each other lohx.. and most of the time... it passed... hmm.. maybe tat is why we can become stronger than we used to be... hehe.. and tat is wad makes mi love him more each day... hehez... guess have to wait till he wake up first bahz.. hehez..

[[missing xiiaoblur]] *lurbing him more each day*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

hehe

2005-06-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus came home onli... hehe.. jus now went out with my xiiaoblurr and his frenz.. hehe... they went to bugis to play MT againz lohx.. hehe.. i find tat they play MT with all 4 together very nice to see siaz...hehe... dunno why nehz.. but den it is more interesting den hey play the story mode de lohx.. hehe... den after tat we went back to redhill there den talke a bus to take a lope..lolx.. went to yishun.. den take bus back to red hill... hehe.. den aftre tat they at red hill they tok there.. hehe... den after tat.. dardar bring mi home lo.. hehe.. sure had fun 2dae.. although got a bit of fever.. hehe

hmm.. well.. i realised one thing.. hehe.. xiiaoblurr is the onli one who i can get along with his frenz de.. lolx... first time nehz.. well.. i love my dardar lots.. hehez..

[[xiiaotoott lurve her xiiaoblurr]] *missing him already*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

yawn

2005-06-13T12:38:00.000+08:00

wow.. jus woke up.. quite some time never come and update my blog le wor.. well.. cos these few days never come online mahz.. cos when come home le quite late den straight go and slp le mahz.. tat why lohx.. hehe...

hmm.. on sat my frenz and my dardar came to ton at my house.. hehe.. had quite some fun.. lucky they werent as noisy as the other time tat they came to ton.. hehez.. but den i didnt manage to slp at all sia.. at first is can slp le.. den end up two of the guys came in den play PS.. den made a lot of noise den keep shaking the bed.. den bo bian lohx.. didnt slp at all.. hahaz... den nvm lo... hehe.. at least we sure did had fun.. hehez... den on sunday we got cip.. den all woke up very early to go with us.. lolx... we all go tamp 2gether.. den take mi and karen and anna took bus to changi sailing club.. while the rest of them took the same bus to changi village to eat subway.. lolx...

den after cip.. i went to meet deardear for a while but den both of us too tired le.. so bout 5 like tat we went home le lohx.. hehe.. yesterdae my mom birthday oso.. hehe.. went to eat restaurant.. yum yum.. nice wor.. hehe.. den my dad bring us to swesen to eat ice cream.. hehe... yum yum.. of cos is a request de mahz.. hehe

i miss my deardear lot.. wondering wad is he doing now.. hmm... nvm.. jus leave him a sms bahz.. hehe

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *lurbing him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

stressed bout dnt

2005-06-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

wow.. jus came home from dnt.. jus finish bathing onli.. argh.. starting to hate DNT.. especially the teachers there who think so highly of themself... down to hell they go man... i had enuff of them le lohx.. wad kind of stupid attitube they are giving us lo...so wad if they are helping us... do they need to like critisize us in front of so many ppl.. i hate that feeling lo.. dun make mi do tat to them in front of everybody.. when i say it.. i do it... dun force mi to do it lo..argh~ dun wanna tok bout them too much.. they jus spoilt my day.. argh~

yesterdae i went out with my dardar.. we sure had a great time.. hehe.. we went to pets shop.. east point de safari.. well.. i liked tat place...hehez.. we stared at the dogs..so cute lo...hehe.. and even saw them poo.. and worst.. eating their own poo.. lolx.. but overall.. they are jus too cute.. hehe.. den after tat we went back to bedok.. hehe.. saw karen and her ah boy.. lolx.. den after tat we went to tamp.. hehe.. go shop for a while den went to eat.. after tat we went to tm de open atrium to play the playground.. haiz.. here againz.. i caused some pain to dear... he played the things which turns.. and it starts to turn faster and faster.. making dear feel unwell.. haiz.. den after tat we went back to my house there... well.. long story cut short.. first time we cried together.. haiz... and there goes my sa dou dou and mi being him sa gua.. hope this had caused us to be stronger.. hopefully... i love my sa dou dou lots lots lots

[[missing him lots]] *lurbing him more each day*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

tired

2005-06-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

yawn.. jus came back form sch nia wor.. of cos is bathe finish le lohx.. yesterdae i stay overnight at my sch.. lolx... hoenstly.. not much things to do oso la.. was actually planning to watch movies with Ibook.. but den end up.. it spoilt.. so we have nuthin better to do so we all play dai dee lo... during the night we play until bout 3 to 4 plus den i went to slp le.. lolx.. cos next morning still got sch lehz.. den at 6 plus edwin go and wake mi up.. make until i so blur.. den bathe finish le den i go canteen and slp on the benches.. lolx.. gd thing bout the canteen..

hmm.. dun think i will write much cos now a bit tired.. lets say.. very tired.. lolx.. i miss my deardear...

[[missing xiiaoxiiong]] *lurbin him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

sianz

2005-06-05T15:29:00.000+08:00

wow.. jus came home and i will be going out soon le.. haiz...2dae wont be coming home to slp... going to sch to stay overnight for the PL camp.. with my grp of frenz.. hmm.. wonder wad i shld bring siaz.. lolx.. i noe not much...but i dunno wad to.. for sure i need to bring my charger man...it is like.. wow.. my fone is flat.. lolx.. last night didnt charge... hmm.. now a bit tired siaz.. jus now went for cip.. got chance to slp i confirm is fall aslp le.. lol.. tired mah.. bo bian.. and i caught a flu man.. haiz... jus now during cip... the little boy keep splashin water on mi.. i is see him so sian no one pei him den i play with him de wor.. den after tat the sea wind very cold lo.. make until i keep on sneezing.. haiz... idiot de siaz..

i miss my deardear.. i think until now he still slping bahz.. dunno nehz.. maybe later den call him lo.. cos if he really slping den let him slp longer lohz.. hehez.. i love my deardear.. he treats mi the best.. love him manz.. hehez..hmm... i think deardear oso become a little panda bear le.. lolx.. cos he like these few days slp very little lohx.. haiyoz.. i ke lian my deardear... he now thinner le.. haiz.. not much fats le..cos he keep skipping dinner...haiz...hope he doesnt continue with it le...xiiaozhu xin tong..

okie la.. i go and prepare my stuffs le.. if not later go there den forget this and tat.. very troublesome de... i miss deardear

[[missing xiiaoblurr a.k.a xiiaoxiiong]] *lurbing him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

hehe

2005-06-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

2dae went out with my dardar and his frenz.. hehe... den went to watch movie.. den after tat went to bugis to buy things.. hehe.. i wont write detail de.. cos now very late le.. den somemore jus came home.. den lazy to type so much.. hehe...

the movie i watch 2dae very nice wor.. hehe.. the cartoons de... si bei cute lo.. but sumtimes a bit lame.. but den i like it.. lol.. dardar watch until slp.. cos he very tired mahz.. lolx... 2dae dardar wear spect.. lolx.. si bei cute.. lolx.. anyway... he looks very cute.. lolx... anyway.. dun tok so much le.. i lazy to type le.. hehe...

i miss my deardear

[[missing him]] *lurbing him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

tired...

2005-06-03T17:43:00.000+08:00

haiz.. tired.. tired of dnt... dunno why siaz.. but seem tat 2dae de time pass by very fast lo.. hmm..2dae didnt do much oso... jus at the slack... no mood to do oso lo.. den stuck like siaoz.. should have done more stuffs... but the teacher there keep on fan mi.. haiyoz.. i doing sumthing den keep saying.. not like tat... should be like tat like tat

haiz..i dunno how to describe my emotion now..haiz.. should i say it is sad? worried?or jus nuthin?i dunno nehz.. haiz..sumtimes i feel tat tears are bout to fall..i dunno nehz.. haiz.. maybe it is jus a mood swing bahz.. haiz..haiyoz..surely is moodswing de... hmm.. dun wanna tok bout it le...

i miss my deardear.. nvm.. tml can go out with him le.. hehe... i miss him lots wor..sianz..sun still got to go to sch... for the PL de expression night...well.. i dun mind going.. but if can bring my dardar along gd le.. lolx...dunno la.. sianz le... okie la.. nuthin much to tok bout oso..

[[missing him lots]] *lurbing him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoot a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

bored

2005-06-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

wow.. i am bored...so many thing to do.. haiz... DNT.. stressful... all i can say.. i always get stuck...and guess wad.. no teachers come to help.. they are much too busy with the others... boring...bo bian lo.. den 2dae slack the whole day lohx.. bo bian.. no one to ask.. ask le oso wont answer u.. so i rather slack.. go out have a drink or some food.. guess shall wait till i am really prepared with all my stuffs den i will finish my dnt bahz.. haiz..

dunno wad to tok bout siaz.. haiz.. brain now empty.. later still have to complete my journal.. boring.. due tml 30 entries...and i currently onli have 2 inside my book.. lolx.. so tonight have to rush it le lohx.. bo bian.. sianz

i miss my dardar...4 days never see him le.. not used to it oso.. haiyo.. bo bian.. guess have to wait till saturday...haiz.. guess the first thing i would do is to hug him tight.. hehe.. i miss him a lot wor.. whole day thinking of him siaz.. hmmm.. hope saturday can come quickly..hehe... *hoping hoping* hehe.. miss him too much le.. den now a bit crazy le.. lolx

[[xiiaotoott lurb xiiaoblurr]] *missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

i miss my deardear

2005-06-01T18:45:00.000+08:00

haiz.. jus bathe... i miss my deardear... hmm.. too stick to him le last time.. lolx... now days without him by my side... really not used to it siaz.. but i got his fone by my side... alway reminds mi bout him.. hehe.. and the pics of us in his fone... hehe.. in class when i miss him a lot i will take out and look at it.. hehe... hmm.. some may think i am really crazy over my deardear le.. haha.. agree..? lolx.. well.. maybe.. sumtimes i do think so oso.. hehez...

2dae go sch have SS den DnT... wow.. can tell u tat.. sumtimes DnT really is very stressful lohx.. haiz.. i am now stuck with my workpiece lohx.. i dunno how to do le lohx.. 2dae can say half of the day.. i was slacking at the workshop lohx.. haiz.. really dunno wad to do le loh... somemore it is very tiring lohx... imagine... from 8am to 4pm u have lesson... like non stop.. onli an hour break... damn.. and somemore the workship is a damn hot and dusty place lohx.. it is so lucky i am still able to tolerate it arh.. haiyo...den 2dae.. i keep redoing the same thing lo.. cos suay lo... when filing the plastic.. i broke it.. den redo.. den later found out a better way to do it den i redo againz lo.. sound stupid right? haiz.. guess i still need some long time to finish my workpiece bahz.. stress stress...

- * I MISS MY XIIAOXIIONG A.K.A XIIAOBLURR * -

[[missing him lots]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

bored

2005-05-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

oh man... 2dae stayed in sch until 4 plus. wow.. sianz siaz...becos of Dnt lohx.. haiz... boring siaz... at first i was first.. den okie.. nvm.. den when i am in the workshop.. i was confused.. i dunno how to do lo.. den i stand there blur blur... dunno lo.. maybe 2dae a bit blur the whole day... sianz de lehz.. always holiday like not holidays... haiz.. how i wish can go out and play until shiok shiok but den impossible for this yr lo.. bo bian.. o level ma.. still have to jia you lohx

hmm...i miss my deardear...guess will wait till weekend den can go out wif him lo... hmm.. nvm.. i willing to wait.. cos he is worth waitin...hehe..honestly..sumtimes i find tat my deardear very cute nehz.. hehe...he sumtimes is really very blurblur de lohx... hehe.. dat is wad makes mi dote on him so much.. hehe.. sumtimes when he does sumthing wrong which would make u angry...but looking at his "i know i am wrong" face... for sure..ur anger will disappear.. and makes u really wanna pinch his cheek and hug him tight..hehe.. is tat the reason why i love him so much..?i dunno why.. no matter wad wrong he does...i jus cant get angry with him..i cant bear to be angry with him..hehez..i love deardear de shoulder..hehe..very gd to slp on...once i took 21 from pasir ris to my house with deardear... journey bout 1 hour...guess wad.. once i slept on his shoulder..i slept till i reach my house bus stop..hehez..i jus love him..hehe

oh ya..there is this group of ppl at sch dunno why like dee siao mi lohx..i dunno wad wrong i did lohx...but pls if u think u r one of them.. tell mi wads wrong tat make u all wanna dee siao mi loh.. i dun wanna be dee siao for no taji loh...this is already the last yr of sch in damai for mi...so pls help mi make this yr pleasant for mi..thx u..

[[missing him]]*lurbing him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott a.k.a xiiaozhu *=-

hehe

2005-05-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

wow.. 2dae had my o level chi siaz... haiz... stressed man.. a lot of thing oso suddenly forget some things tat i learnt last night lohx.. haiyo.. last night karen came to my house to help mi with my chi.. hehe.. really need to thankz her a lot wor... she so tired le den she still help mi... den until we two very tired le den we both went to slp.. hehe.. den this morning she had to wake up early den she go home.. but den she pei mi go to sch there cos she go home too early is scare tat no one help her open the door... lolx... hehe.. den we at mama shop there eat for a while.. den chat for a while until my time reach le den go into sch.. hehe...

jus now went out with my dardar.. hehe.. we go bugis shop shop lohx.. hehe... cos after these few days wont be able to go out with my dardar le.. cos i got sch until 4pm lehz.. den dardar got some things on oso...den dardar and mi xchange fone.. hehe... not used to it siaz.. the fone so big.. lolx... but den nvm lo... will get used to it soon le.. hehe... i miss my dear.. hehez..

hmm.. yesterdae saw two of my ex.. both at tamp.. wow.. one is dunno how long nv see le.. one is my di.. lolx..tot the one tat i didnt see for very long time wouldnt see mi... but well... still he saw mi.. haha.. mi too big size le.. very hard to hide from ppl.. lolx.... still.. i miss my dear.. hehe

[[missing my dear]] *lurbin him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

hehe

2005-05-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

2dae went out with dardar and andy.. lolx... go pei them play MT lohx.. wow i stand there for a few hours lehz.. without sitting.. lucky i found a chair to sit ar.. if not my leg will rot siaz.. lolx.. hehe.. den see them play.. den hor.. the group tat challenge them si bei noisy siaz.. almost wanted to shout at them and ask them to shut up siaz.. somemore they shout is those very sharp de sound lo.. u noe.. arcade already very noisy le den they still at there shouting.. wow buay tan han ar.. make until my ear so pain siaz... lucky i can ren ar.. if not confirm shout at them de... haiyo.. den after they play finish le den we went to eat lohx.. hehe.. actually 2dae oso not much thing we did loh.. jus the normal things tat we always do de lohx.. hehe

hmm..this monday is o level chi.. sianz lehz.. haiyo.. tml must chiong le.. sianz.. nvm.. i will jia you wor.. haiyo.. now a bit headache siaz.. dunno why.. haiz.. think i update more on another day...

[[lurbing xiiaoblur]] *missing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

yeah

2005-05-27T18:53:00.000+08:00

*bOo*

quite some time never come and update blog le.. lolx.. cos these few days quite late den come home den by the come home oso lazy to come update le.. lolx... hmm... 2dae jus got back report bk.. well.. as expected lohx.. lolx.. the results.. well.. used to it le.. but i wil try harder for the next few exams lohx.. wow sian lehx... monday got o level chi.. haiz.. so mnay start studying le.. i yesterdae den start a bit onli lohx.. haiz.. dunno why nehz.. when i think of going to study den when i start den got a bit sianz le.. haiz.. jialat ar... but wel.. i will try my best lohx.. hehe

jus now went to meet my xiiaoblur.. hehe.. den after tat take bus back to eunos lohx.. hehe... these few days almost everyday meet my xiiaoblur.. hehe.. starting to stick to him le.. lolx.. he oso wor.. hmm.. sianz arhz.. dardar going to start work soon le den got no time to pei mi le.. haiz.. when he slp i in sch.. when i slp he working.. haiz.. cos he work midnight shift mahz.. dats why now got chance will everyday go out loh... if not when dardar start woork den very seldom will go out le lohx.. haiz... so now must treasure every moment we go out wor.. even if it is jus a few hours lo.. hehe...

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

yawn

2005-05-23T13:59:00.000+08:00

woo~ jus woke up.. hehe.. very tired siaz.... these few days slp very little niaz.. hehe... late late slp den very early wake up.. hehez... for the past few days.. i am always with my dardar... hehe... since our first month anniversary.. seem tat we are onli apart from each other a few hour and we are back out together..lolx..

yesterdae dardar was at my house in the morning too.. hehe...had a hard time waking him up man.. haiyo.. he always slp like pig siaz.. lolx.. den after tat we went to play basketball.. hehe.. i especially call him up to pei mi go play basketball de.. lolx.... play for a while le den tired le so wait for CL to come.. lolx.. hehe.. den after tat celine came along.. lolx...

yesterdae... i felt like we have gone back to our childhood le.. we went to the playground and started playing catching.. man it was fun... long time didnt have this kind of fun le.. hehe.. becos the sun too hot le.. den we decided to go my house to rest.. den end up.. we play daidee.. lolx.. and also stress and heart attack.. lol.. den play until bout 3 plus den celine went home.. hehe..den cl and mi continue playing.. lolx.. unyil bout 5 plus den we went out...

i pei xiiaoblurr to his house there den we went to Marina square de arcade... played para para and daytona.. lolx.. den after tat we went to walk walk.. hehe.. den quite late le so we went home.. hehez.. each day spent with my dardar is a wonderful time.. hehe...

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

1st month 2gether..

2005-05-21T13:06:00.000+08:00

hehe.. yesterdae went out with my xiiaoblurr.. our one month anniversary wor.. hehez.. yesterdae he come sch fetch mi home.. hehe.. so gd.. first time he come fetch mi wor... hehez... understandable.. cos he stay very far mahz.. den his sch hour oso clashes with my release of sch.. hehez.. i understand de wor.. lolx... den after tat i go home bathe le den go out with xiiaoblur le.. hehe.. den ricko got come along oso lohx.. hehe...

we ate at the coffeee shop.. actually not we.. is onli mi lohx.. haiyo.. cos they all eat le den come down de... sianz.. pai seh lehz.. all look at mi eat.. hehe.. den after tat we took bus 65 go to bugis den go marina square... we lazy take train mahz.. somemore card inside oso no money le.. lolx...

den deardear teach mi para para.. lolx.. like killing mosquito like tat.. lolx.. but den not bad la.. at least there got no ppl mahz.. den not so pai seh.. hehe.. den after tat we went to play daytona... wow..dear bully mi de.. lolx.. kena the side den the whole car turn around.. lolx.. but den nvm la.. at least we did had lots of fun wor.. hehez...

den after tat ricko went home so mi and deardear went shopping lohx.. hehe.. i really did enjoy this day.. hehe.. den after tat dear went to my house to slp lohx.. he piggy lai de.. haha.. wake him up... very hard de wor.. hehez.. den this morning wake him up.. still must chase him go and brush teeths de.. horrible... haiyo.. lolx.. but den very cute lo.. hehez... den after tat we go coffee shop eat eat den go behind de blk tok.. hehez... he very cute lo.. hehe.. okie la.. he call mi le... time to call him le.. hehez..

[[happy being with him]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

hehe..

2005-05-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

hmm... so boring siaz 2dae.. cant meet my xiiaoblur cos he 2dae end sch later.. den i cannot go out too late cos tml got test.. sianz siaz.. haiyo... chinese againz.. haiz.. nvm la.. bo bian le loh.. have to study.. who ask o level chi to be on 30th may.. sianz.. haiz...

got back my results le.. haiz.. as expected... not very gd marks indeed... used to it le but den i will still work on it lohx... bo bian.. o level mahz.. haiz.. stressed lehz.. always reminding myself of o level will make my heart beat very fast... anyway.. yesterdae a teacher came into my class who gave us back our eng paper.. oh man.. i felt like whacking her siaz... she keep comparing others with us.. idiot de lohx.. if we were much cleverer than them..do we still need to be in 4e4..? man.. i felt like burning her into pieces.. idiot de.. if she is so clever den show it to us la... a teacher onli wad.. dun even noe how to speak properly.. critisize ppl's hairstyle.. as if hers very nice like tat.. jus a mushroom head la.. eeee.... hair stand ar.. er xin arhz.. hmm.. haha.. i very bad hor..? bo bian.. who ask her take other ppl to compare with us which is the thing i hate most.. lolx...

hmm.. tml is mi and xiiaoblurr de one month le.. hehez.. so happie... tml i book him le.. tml we will go out 2gther.. hehe.. go where neh? still not sure lehz.. hehez... any suggestion? hehe.. he wanna teach mi para para oso.. hehe.. i noe it is a bit outdated... but mi.. mountain turtles lai de mahz.. hehez... den next time he teach mi le den we can play 2gther le wor.. hehez... i love my xiiaoblurr..

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *lurbing him more each day*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

yawn

2005-05-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

hmm... jus finish bathing.. hehe.. jus now went out with my xiiaoblur and his frenz wor... hehe... 2dae they come bedok find mi.. by right is go sch fetch mi de lehz.. den they took the wrong bus... lolx.. den mi have to go bedok north 85 market find them.. den nvm.. after tat say wan go my house there... funny lehz.. i from bus stop walk to 85 far lehz.. den have to walk back.. wow.. far siaz.. haiyoz... nvm bahz.. cos after tat is they pei mi walk to bus stop de.. hehez...

at bedok res.. hehe... we sit under the blk chat chat lo.. actually not much thing we did oso lo.. but den we sure had some fun chatting lohx.. hehe...

yesterdae oso went out with my xiiaoblur.. hehe... yesterdae went to tm and bugis with my jie mei den after tat we went to bugis.. den we went to shopping.. hehe.. shop finish le den went walk walk cos we dunno wanna go where so we anyhow go.. lolx.. den after tat bout evening time den they go home den i went to meet my xiiaoblur.. hehe.. we at bugis walk walk... bugis we walk until sianz le.. lolx.. almost every week surely will go once or twice de.. lolx.. the floor we walk until rotten le.. hehez..

took back some of my result le.. haiz.. wanna cry siaz... took back 4... 2 fail... 2 jus pass.. haiz.. sianz... dunno la... scare bout tml de paper arh.. haiz... hope not tat bad le bahz..

[[missing xiiaoblur]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

happiness is in mi

2005-05-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

hmm..2dae very late den wake up.. hehe.. cos last night very laate den slp mahz.. actually dun wan to wake up de lehz.. my mom lo.. keep on waking mi up.. haiyo.. fan si ren le.. lolx... den my mom bring mi to suntec to go shopping.. hehez.. den buy mi shoes.. slippers and bags.. hehe.. cos my shoes all these spoilt le mahz.. haiyoz... hehez

den after tat... xiiaoblurr came to look for mi.. hehez... den my parents saw him.. but didnt noe he is my aiai.. hehe.. wonder wad they think bout him lehz.. hehe.. wonder wad if i tell my mom bout him... dunno wad their reaction will be lehz.. hehe.. but i dun wanna take the risk to tell them.. hehe.. i scare lehz... dunno wad they will do if they noe siaz.. haiyoz.. hehe.. den mi and xiiaoblurr went to skygarden sit sit for a while lohx.. cos scare my parents follow mi mahz.. hehez.. den after tat we at suntec walk walk for a while den after tat we go marina square.. hehe.. at there we eat le den go shopping lohx.. hehe.. the place there we walk until wanna rot le.. cos we always go there mahz.. den dunno where to go le mahz.. haiyo.. sg so small.. no places to go.. some places got nuthin to do de so sian.. lolx.. hmm.. i jus got home not long ago.. hehe.. bathe finish le.. maybe in the night meeting my dardar againz.. hehez... cos they cycling later.. hehez.. maybe bah... they haven confirm with mi yet.. hehe.. i miss my dardar

[[..missing him..]] *lurbing him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

yawn

2005-05-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

*yawn* tired siaz.. hehez.. jus got home from bugis.. hehe.. jus now went out with my aiai.. hehe... den we met each other at redhill.. hehe.. den we took bus 63 to go find his mom and ah ma to get things.. wow.. so pai seh lehz... saw them.. den i stand at one side.. i dunno to go there or not to go there.. so i jus stand at one side lohx.. izzit a bit rude ar? to not even go there and say aunty hao or wad ar? haiyoz.. i scare mahz.. haiyoz..

den after tat is really dunno where to go so we went to arcade den i see xiiaoblurr play lohx.. hehe.. cos i dun play de mahz... haha.. den after tat went walk walk.. saw my classmate shi hui.. lolx.. scare mi siaz.. haha.. den we tok for a while den go diff way le.. cos she was toking to some other ppl bout church stuffs.. lolx... den after tat mi and xiiaoblurr went to have dinner.. hehe.. den go arcade againz lohz.. hehez... den go home le.. cos late le.. somemore raining wor.. sianz lehz...

for the past few days... i am always going out with my xiiaoblurr.. hehez.. starting to stick to him le wor.. hehe.. loving him more each day is wad will surely happen.. the things tat we go through makes us stronger... hehe.. last night xiiaoblurr missed his last bus.. but well... dun expect mi to make him walk home from eunos to redhill right? tat is inhuman.. so i sneaked him home lohx.. hehe... but dun anyone think YY hor... we didnt do anything.. well.. i jus love my xiiaoblurr a lot.. hehez... he treats mi very nice.. i hope i will treat him better too.. hehe

[[missing him]] *lurbing him more*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

hehe

2005-05-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

hmm.. 2 days never come online le.. hehe.. cos go out until quite late so dun have the chance to come online lohx.. hehex.. yeah... tml is thee last day of exams le.. lolx.. yeah~ but den sianz.. o level chi is on 30th may... haiz.. i scare scare lehz.. my chi has always been very weak.. but i hope i can better this time.. hehe.. hopefully.. hehe

2dae went out with my xiiaoblur wor.. hehez.. i went to BB mrt to find him.. den after tat went to his house.. watch initial D.. lolx.. weird right? a ger who got attracted by initial D.. lolx... cos got influenced by my xiiaoblur and his frenz mahz.. lolx.. now hor... a lot of cars de thing i noe more le.. hehe.. cos they always tell mi de mahz.. hehe.. gd oso.. den next time i will noe more bout cars den can understand more le.. hehe... den after tat we went to plaza singapura... den PB came along.. lolx.. den they play MT lo... i of cos is stand there and watch them play lo.. lolx.. i like the background music but den listen long le will oso get sianz.. hehe.. den after tat they play finish le den we from PS walk until tekka mall there.. haha.. they go and play those motor toy car.. i think they call it tat name.. hehe... i see them play lohx.. cos i dun play de mahz.. hehe.. den after tat quite late le den xiiaoblur bring mi home.. hehe.. so gd.. den i tetach him sign language... my laogong[karen] teach mi de.. lolx.. den the whole journey is teaching xiiaoblur siaz.. lolx.. later ppl tot we all so old still dunno our ABC arhz.. lolx... hmm.. den jus now under the blk chat with my xiiaoblur lohx.. hehe... i jus finished my dinner and jus finish bathing.. hehe.. now waiting for my xiiaoblur to reach home.. hehe... i miss him.. hehe.. oh yaa.. xiiaoblurr gave mi three bearbear.. hehe.. very cute de.. lolx... got time i upload the pic of it in multiply.. hehe..

[[missing him]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

100505

2005-05-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

hmm. sorrie bout the entry yesterdae.. guess i was damn fed up yesterdae loh.. but glad tat i had my frenz with mi to cheer mi up.. hehe.. thank frenz...

yesterdae went out with my xiiaoblur.. hehe. we went to the same place lohx.. our old place loh.. haha.. bugis lohx.. lolx.. hehe.. den we all walk around lohx.. hmm. first time see him wear sch U lehz.. hehe.. very cute lehz.. suddenly feel tat his eyes bigger le.. lolx.. very cute.. i love him.. lolx..

i dun think i will typing much 2dae cos i now toking on the fone with him.. and somemore i using my bro de comp... not used to it.. hehez
i think i will bout it more tml bahz.. hehez

[[missing him]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

damn fucked up

2005-05-09T11:49:00.000+08:00

i am now very du lan...! i hate my parents.. they really is overdo it le...~! i hate them i hate them.... dun let mi go out.. dun let mi use the fone... dun let mi use comp... fuck la.. wad they wan mi to do... they force mi to be this way de lohx.. i wont be so rebellious de lohx.. they force mi to do it de lohx.. i really hate them... how i wish i can leave this home.. i already sick of this place le lohx.. argh~! they say i notti wan bring mi to ger home.. go ahead la~! i not scare... wan come.. lai la~ better than stay in this idiotic house... argh~ everything oso my wrong.. everything my fault.. fuck la.. ask them go think theirself la... who force mi to be like tat de la... ask them go think la... argh~

yesterdae went to out with xiiaoblur... the onli time i can truely be happie is when i am with my xiiaoblur and my frenz.. other than tat.. u can never see my real smile.. i dunno la.. i hate exams lohx.. they force mi to be like this lohx.. argh~ i really hate sch... sometimes i feel like wanna quit sch lohx.. but i noe it is impossible de lohx... haiz

yesterdae mi and xiiaoblur go many places... walk until very tired but den nvm la... aas long it is with him.. i dun think i wil be so tired so easily de.. haiz... i miss him le..

now not in the mood to type so much le... sorrie everyone for my foul language jus now.. i really is very du lan now lohx.. on the verge of tears le.. argh~

[[missing him]]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

hehe

2005-05-07T13:29:00.000+08:00

hehe.. yesterdae went out with my xiiaoblur.. den later on seokmun and ah dai oso got come wor.. hehe.. den we all went shopping lohx.. hehe.. we went to raffles city.. hehe.. den we keep on wanna dee siao seok mun and ah dai.. lolx... hehe... but den always seem to fail de.. lolx.. den after tat we at raffles oso sianz le.. den we went to esplanade.. hehe.. at there we took lots and pic.. hehe.. had quite some fun there lohx.. hehe... den after tat we walk walk... den quite late le so we all have to go home le.. but den we decided to go to plaza singapura there lohx... hehe... den we walk there for a while.. hehe.. den after tat is really quite late le loh... going to 12 le.. den we all go home lohx... we took 65 home.. hehe.. den after tat reach home le.. i call my xiiaoblur.. den i watch tv.. hehez... actually xiiaoblurr and his frenz wanna cycle come my house here in the morning de... but den meng de tyre burst... lolx.. funny wor.. hehex.. den end up i slept until 12+pm... hehe

yesterdae i really enjoyed my day lohx.. hehe.. imagine a whole day with my xiiaoblur and frenz.. hehez.. awwww... i really like the feeling loh.. very relax.. hehez... very sweet too.. hehez... *shyz* hehe... this morning wake up... i keep thinking if it is sun or sat siaz.. cos last night like sat siaz.. lolx... dunno if 2dae can go out a not sia.. haiz.. i wanna go out.. i wanna go out with xiiaoblur.. or anyone.. haiz...

i miss my xiiaoblur.. hehe.. a lot wor... lurve him too *shyz*

[[missing xiiaoblur]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

yeah~

2005-05-06T14:53:00.000+08:00

hehe... 2dae is friday le.. yeah.. tml no exams.. haha.. can rest for tml and sun le... shiok.. hehe.. maybe later meeting my xiiaoblur wor.. hehez... 2dae de poa jialat le siaz.. everything i oso forget how to do.. lolx.... chi hai hao bahz.. hehez.. lucky the han yu ping yin onli got 5 qns if not hor.. i confirm faint arhz.. hahaz.. wow.. now de weather very cold siaz.. somemore i now still wearing shelveless(dunno spell correct a not nehz) hehez.. jus now watch "i do i do" de Vcd... xiiaoblurr lend mi de.. hehe.. very nice to watch wor..wanted to watch a second time.. but mama scold mi siaoz.. lolx.. hehe...

yesterdae was quite a nice day.. but was sick and didnt have much voice.. now oso bahz.. hehe.. so recently u will find tat i am much quieter.. lolx.. cos i cant be bothered to tok without voice lohx.. lolx.. yesterdae i after exams went to find xiiaoblur at redhill.. hehe.. den we went to eat.. den after tat took bus 63 back to eunos.. lolx... the bus very cold oso lohx.. buay tan han.. lucky got xiiaoblur there.. hehe.. den we took bus to my house there.. hehe.. den we from the other side slowly walk den we sit under a HDB flat den chat chat.. hehe.. rest there lohx.. hehe... den after tat quite late le so we all walk to my house there lohx.. hehe.. den we under my blk for quite long lehz.. hehez.. nvm la.. it is time spend usefully with my xiiaoblur.. hehez...

at home le.. watch tv.. eat dinner bathe le.. den i went to study for a while.. den tok on fone with xiiaoblur and his fren "lengendary ah dai" haha.. he very idiot lehz.. keep on suan mi.. until xiiaoblur oso buay tan han den help mi take revenge by calling andy come in help mi.. lolx... feel so gd.. hehe.. got someone there to protect mi.. hehez... yuan lai xiiaoblur dun like ppl to suan mi de wor.. hehez.. lurve him man.. hehe.. den after tat really is late le.. den went to slp le.. hehez...

i guess i crazy over xiiaoblur le.. hehez.. maybe some already think so le hor? lolx.. maybe bahz.. hehez.. he is already part of my life le... dunno wad will happen if this part is taken off.. guess i will go crazy..? i guess so bahz.. hmm.. i dun wan this part to be taken off.. never.. no way...

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

cough cough

2005-05-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

*cough cough* sianz arhz.. jus came back from sch lohx... cos finish first two paper le.. sianz arhz.. haiz... so suay de lehz.. always mid yr exams start le den i will be sick de lehz.. haiz.. sad lohx.. now is cough and a bit sore throat den sometimes got flu.. wow.. sian de lehz... for the last four yrs oso like tat... mid yr exams den sick.. haiz.. i hate mid yr.. hmm.. boring

yesterdae didnt come online cos needa study for geo lohx.. cos was home quite late so didnt come online lohx... hmm.. yesterdae was my laogong[karen] birthday.. lolx. 16th birthday.. she old le.. lolx.. hmm.. den after sch we went to long john silver to eat with her.. hehez.. den after tat we all from bedok interchange walk until her house there lo.. hehe.. we pei her home.. hehez.. den after tat we sent her up den we went home le.. hehe..

well.. nuthin much happened this two days oso.. cos it is all bout studies.. boring.. argh~ must study until 13th may.. i can do it de.. hehe.. i will jia you de wor.. hehe.. cant wait for tml.. hehe.. going down to find my xiiaoblurr.. hehez.. miss him siaz.. hehez

[[missing xiiaoblur]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

yawn~

2005-05-02T13:43:00.000+08:00

another boring day.. hmm... parentss dun let mi go out.. haiz.. sianz.. but den later i still going out lohx.. cos i needa finish up my folio.. hehe.. but... i meeting my xiiaoblurr... hehe.. later he pei mi do.. cos we wanna meet mahz.. den i have to finish it by tml so have to bring it along lohx.. den he can help mi with it oso.. hehez...

last night i went to my cousin house... well.. honestly.. jus one word can describe it all.. "boring" there was nuthin for mi to do lohx.. all the parents and adult were playing majong or playing their own stuffs.. while i can onli either watch tv or watch them play... boring... and well.. i was bored until i fell aslp on the sofa.. not until my one of my cousin sat beside mi... he jus bumped himself into the sofa...wake mi up.. idiot.. hahaz.. and he keep moving non stop.. argh~ irritating.. but nvm... den it was until bout 12 den we left the place... boring... back at home.. nuthin to do.. den i called xiiaoblur and we chat.. hehe... he pei mi when i do my folio.. cos i couldnt slp.. wel.. i know he was very tired but he still insist to pei mi.. hmm.. but not long later.. i told him to go slp.. hehe.. and i went to slp too... *yawn* hmm.. guess it is time for mi to do other stuffs le.. hehe

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

yawn

2005-05-01T13:37:00.000+08:00

*yAwN* jus woke up.. so tired.. yesterdae slept at bout 2 am plus lohx.. haiz.. 2dae needa go cousin house.. for wad..? i oso dunno.. sianz.. dunno why i dun like to go to their places.. cos i go there always very lonely de... cos all adults... haiz.. and i am the onli teenager.... boring... is all i say.. lolx...

now i editing all the photo i took with xiiaoblur yesterdae.. hehe.. cos all the pics too big le.. hehe.. so have to make small b4 i can put them in my multiply.. hehez... hmm.. looking at the pics... i will think back of how much fun we had wor.. hehea.. really was happie during tat time.. hehe.. hoping tat this will continue for as long as we can.. hehez.. starting to miss my xiiaoblurr le.. guess he now still slping.. cos last night his fren went to his house to play... until quite late i guess.. hehe...

yeah` jus finish editing the pics le.. hehe.. loading them into my multiply le.. hehez.. maybe later editing some nice one and put inside friendster.. hehez.. okie.. off to finish up my "job" hehe

[[missing xiiaoblur]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

lurbing him

2005-04-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

jus came home... hehe.. and of cos... jus finished bathing.. hehe... 2dae went out with xiiaoblur the whole day.. hehe.. so happie. cos dunno when den can go out with xiiaoblur again cos of exams.. haiz.... nvm... i really treasure this day with xiiaoblur.. hehe...

this afternoon.. i went to redhill to look for xiiaoblur.. hehe.. den we took bus 63 take back to eunos.. sound a bit lame i noe.. but den nvm la.. at least i was able to spend time with him 2gether mahz.. hehez.. den we in bus chat chat chat.. and den play around oso.. hehe.. he kenaa pinched and bitten by mi so many time.. hehe.. den i used my digital cam and took quite a number of pic of us.. hehe.. den had fun in the bus.. hehe

we reach eunos le.. hehe.. eunos got nuthin to walk.. so we decided to go to tampines.. hehe.. den we went for a meal.. actually is xiiaoblur onli.. hehe.. den after tat we went shopping... hehe.. den xiiaoblur went to play arcade.. hehez... see him play... i oso enjoy.. den after tat we went to sun plaza park... hehe.. we went to my old place... den sit there chat chat... rest rest den buay tan han le den we go tampines mall shopping.. hehe.. saw many cute things wor.. hmm.. but den no money... so will wait until got money den go and buy.. hehe. i saw this cute photo album at the precious tots.. hehe.. i going to buy it when i saved enuff money.. hehe... i gonna do sumthing with it.. hehe...

den after tat.. we went back to my area.. hehez... bedok... den we walk at the park.. hehe.. found a void deck and we chat there againz.. hehez.. sure had fun.. hehez... jus came home.. hehez.. i miss him.... i really hope he promise wad he says... i really hope so.. we did make a promise.. hehez... xiiaotoott misses her xiiaoblurr.. hehe...

[[missing xiiaoblur]] *lurbing xiiaoblurr*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

hehez

2005-04-30T11:22:00.000+08:00

hehe... jus woke up not long ago wor.. hehe.. dunno if my xiiaoblurr wake up le mahz... haven call him yet.. cos i scare he still slping.. den dun wan so early wake him up mahz.. hehe.. now waiting for my parents to come back with my breakfast.. hehez....

hmm... cant wait to see my xiiaoblurr later.. haha.. i think some ppl who everyday read my blog will oso get bored le.. cos everyday i will be toking bout my xiiaoblurr.. hehe.. dunno why.. i guess i am all bout him le.. hehe.. of cos with my fren tat is.. lolx... hmm... yesterdae b4 slp i think a lot lehz.. hehe.. sometimes i will slap myself.. cos i will scare i am jus dreaming tat i am with him lehz.. hehe.. cos seem quite unbelievable.. hehe.. but i am very glad iw asnt slping nor dreaming.. i am really with him.. hehez... tats is why i guess i treasure him so much.. hehe.. but sumtimes to him.. i may sound like an old naggy mummy.. hehez.. nvm la.. at least i noe he is okie le.. hehez...

[[missing him]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

yawn.. so sianz

2005-04-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

*yawn* 2dae had our first paper.. boring.. haha.. paper 1... i dunno i go sch is for the exams or for slping.. lolx.. spent most of my time slping instead.. lolx.. cos maybe i finished it too early bahz.. lolx... den end up slp lohx.. lolx... den after tat we had extra lessons... boring.. supposed can go home at 12.30 of dun have remedial... but den becos of it... i can onli go home at bout 4 plus siaz... haiz.. sianz... den hor.. worst is.... had to bring back all the books i left in class... heavy~ lolx..

jus when i got home.. i called xiiaoblurr le.. hehez... xiiaoblurr sound a little sick.. hmm.. i worry for him nehz.. haiz.... too bad i am not with him.. if not i can look after him le.. hehez.. i miss him... maybe tml going out with him lohx.. lolx... go out 2gether den he pei mi study.. lolx.. yeah~ first time wor.. but den i scare i will end up not studying at all lohx.. actually all i wanted to do was to spend time with him b4 i cannot wor.. cos exams come le... means i cannot go out le wor.. haiyoz... hehe.. i notti hor..? think of this kind of idea.. hehez... xiiaotoott misses xiiaoblurr a lot wor.. hehez.. cant wait to see him tml.. hehez...

[[misses xiiaoblurr]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

hehe.. so happy

2005-04-28T21:05:00.000+08:00

hehe.. 2dae sch was fine.. a bit boring... but other than tat... guess everything was fine.. hehez.. den after sch went to eat pasta mania... lolx.. with my group of frenz.. hehe.. guess the food really filled my stomach full.. until now.. i still dun feel hungry.. lolx... hmm... den after tat i went to meet my xiiaoblurr at bugis.. hehez.. our old place.. we always go there de.. hehe

made my xiiaoblurr waited for a while cos i was late.. hehez... was very glad to see him.. hehez.. dunno why oso lehz.. hehez.. cos miss him mahz.. lolx.. den after tat we walked around the whole bugis lohxx.. hehe... even the bugis street there.. hehe... did had laughters... and i guess is lots.. hehez.. den after tat we walk to seiyu.. and i saw my jie.. haha.. scare mi siaz.. cos she shouted my name very loud mahz.. lolx.. den after tat when walk to bugis street oso saw my jie.. hehe.. scary siaz.. she like to shout my name... and it always scares mi.. lolx..

late le.. have to go home le.. mi and xiiaoblurr stand outside the control station and stood there very long.. lolx.. well.. a bit stupid huh..? but we at there playing fone.. den i use my fone and took quite a number of his pic.. hehez.. didnt take pic of us two 2gether cos i was in sch U and look damn weird.. lolx.. nvm.. sure got chance to take pic with him de.. lolx.. hmm.. den now.. here i am.. at home.. hehe... later going to call him le.. hehe... missing my xiiaoblurr

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *lurbin him*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

sianz siaz

2005-04-27T18:27:00.000+08:00

hmm.. 2dae de sch si bei sianz siaz.. got nuthin much to do at sch.. onli study study and den slp slp slp.. lolx.. no la.. i now gd ger le.... never slp in class unless is really very tired lohx... hmm.. den after sch i went to karen there.. supposed to study 2gether.. but den end up oso didnt study much lohx.. haha.. end up keep on toking and den i at there keep drawing things.. lolx

hmm... 2dae is xiiaotoott and xiiaoblur 2gether one week le.. hehez... dunno whether xiiaoblur noe a not lehz.. haiz.. maybe bahz.. lolx.. okie la.. dun wanna say much le.. cos brain now empty siaz.. hehez

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *xiiaotoott lurve xiiaoblur*

signing off
-=* xiiaotoott *=-

sianz

2005-04-26T19:26:00.000+08:00

hmm.. 2dae is a boring day... cos i onli went to sch den after sch went to IMH to visit lox.. tot could see sumthing diff.. in the end.. we onli walked around the heritage centre.. boring huh? yeahz lo.. hahaz.. other than tat.. nuthin much oso lohx... so sianz lohx 2dae... hmm.. den jus now reach home den i call him and tok le.. hehe.. jus hang not long ago to go eat dinner... mi wait till type finish this le den will call him.. hehe

hmm. last night mi and my xiiaoblurr sms until very late wor.. hehe.. bout 2 am den we all go slp.. haiz... i jus wanna tell my xiiaoblurr if he happens to see this... xiiaoblurr.. got any xin shi tell mi lohx.. i dun wan u to carry the burden urself lohx.. i wanna share it with u.... make it lightly for u... so u can be happier... i dun wan u to keep it all to urself... this way u will feel heavy and very xin ku de lohx.. i really wanna be by ur side... all the time.. to help u through many thing.. this is becos.. i really treasure u... when i got xin shi.. i will tell u... so i hope xiiaoblurr tell mi... okie..? cos i really love ur smiles... it really makes mi melt... and brighten up my life so much.. i love ur smilez.... hope u mantain ur smiles 4eva.. hehez...

i guess the arrival of xiiaoblurr in my life has really made my life brighter... of cos not forgetting my frenz too la... somehow.. xiiaoblurr smiles will make mi happy.. and when xiiaoblurr is sad or he is crying.. it makes mi wanna cry too.. jus like wad happen last night.. i really hope xiiaoblurr understand how i really feel to him... i feel diff from my other ex lohx.. i dunno why... ish this the feeling of love? i dunno.. but i really hope so... i will learn to treasure xiiaotblurr de...

[[missing xiiaoblurr]] *lurbing him*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

hehez... feeling of love?

2005-04-25T16:39:00.000+08:00

hmm.. yesterdae didnt update cos was home quite late and didnt feel like coming online.. hehez... yesterdae i had a great time.. hehe... yesterdae was oso the last day of my cip... cos exams is going to start soon le... hehez... but i sure i will miss them.. maybe we can go back when our exams ends.. hehez... i love tat place.. i am able to be myself and relax there... i love tat place.. hehez.. well.. i guess we have to jus wait bahz.. hehez

yesterdae after CIP... my laogong[karen] and mi went to bedok inter to eat lunch.. den eat until half way.. bao came.. lolx.. jus nice... my er zi oso a.k.a boyboy come le.. hehe.. den i went to bus stop to find him.. hehe.. den when we eat finish le den we all went to tampines.. hehez.. we went shopping there den after tat we went to century square de arcade to play lohx.. hehe.. i onli use one coin siaz.. hehe.. cos i always play tat game mahz.. so can win a lot of rounds.. hehez.. den after tat my laogong went home le.. den left mi bao and boyboy.. hehe... bao keep saying he lamp post.. lolx.. wont la... den after tat we all go bedok loh.. den bao go look for his frenz.. den mi and boy boy went to eat dinner.. lolx.. actually is he eat onli lohx.. i stare at him eat.. cos i dun feel like eating... den after tat eat finish go back funland there.. tot can tell bao we al wanna go off first.. den end up.. he didnt hear us call.. den we all sian le.. dun wan go inside arcade so we all jus went off lo.. den we went to mac to eat.. hehe.. eat ice cream.. hehe.. den he like hungry ghost like tat.. den he went to buy fries.. lolx.. so gd.. cos i playing his phone.. he still noe how to feed mi wor.. hehez.. awwww.. so sweet hor? lolx...

at bedok inter oso sianz.. so we took a bus to my area here den we all walk walk lohx.. hehe... we from eunos CC there walk until my house there.. hehe... dunno why... even though is quite a long road.. but i really enjoy tat period of time lohx.. hehez.. tat period of time i very happy lohx... feel very sweet oso.. hehez... den after tat we walk until sianz le so i found a place for us to sit.. hehe.. there very cooling lohx.. we sat and chat while we listen to his hp de mp3 player.. hehez... i feel very relax there lohx.. hehe.. miss tat time siaz... hope tat we often will have this kind of quality time 2gether.. but den exams coming le.. so have less of these time.. hehe.. but i believe we can go through this 2gether de.. hehex... den after tat quite late le so we walk to my house.. hehe.. den hor... very funny lohx.. he say he think i cannot run fast.. i will show to him tat i can run fast lohx.. den imagine i was wearing skirt and a bit of heel shoes.. and i was holding a very heavy bag.. lolx.. of cos cant run fast la.. den i pass all my bag and heel to him.. den i started running.. lolx.. he couldnt catch up.. lalalala~ den under my blk we all keep running here and there.. lolx.. like small kid like tat.. but can tell u tat.. i really enjoy tat time.. hehe... miss tat time..

hmm.. 2dae de sch very sian loh.. hehe.. den after sch went to tamp to eat lunch den now here i am.. home.. hehe.. waiting for his fone call le.. lolx.... miss him..

[[missing him]] *lurve him*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

haiz.. bored

2005-04-23T12:56:00.000+08:00

wow.. sianz arh... early in the morning already got nuthin to do sia.. so boring.. haiz.. i no waitting for ppl to reply my msg.. dunno he wake up le not lehz... hmm.. sianz siaz... early in the morning.. the construction side near my house wake mi up.. if not now i still slping arhz.. buay tan han siaz.. idiot de.. wake mi up... argh~ curse tat machine.. lolx.. nvm la.. den i woke up le den i watch carton lohx.. lolx.. cos got no show to watch mah.. bo bian lohx.. hmm.. sianz siaz...

hmm.. later going to redhill... meet my mei and the rest.. hehez... sianz la... still got a long time to go den the time to meet... sianz.. i think i go and play game better.. lolx.. now brain quite empty... dunno wad to type.. lolx

[[missing him]] *bored*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

bored

2005-04-22T14:04:00.000+08:00

IMPT*** I change my hp no. le... now is 91674816

hmm... 2 days never update blog le.... wed is cos i went out till quite late den got no time to come online to update the blog... den hor.... yesterdae is becos no mood to come online.. had a fight with my bro and a arguement with my parents.. sianz siaz.. yesterdae cry like siaoz.. haiz.... hack care them le lahz... 2dae will be a better day.. haiz...

on wed... i had a great time at the esplanade... hehe.. with my er zi.. first time there lohx.. dun luff at mie lehz.. hehez... really lehz.... hehe.. den we at there outside see the sea lohx.. hmm... i love tat feeling... den got lots of tourist there.. hehe... i love tat period of time.. how i wish i need not go home at all.. den we could stay there for as long as we want.. hehez... den after tat we decided to walk the park.. hehez... we from esplanade walk until lavender there de mrt station lehz.. hehez.. imagine how long we walk.. lolx... well... i really enjoy tat time lohx.. hehe... we chat a lot... had lots of fun.. hehez... but one thing almost spoilt the day.. i saw my ex... argh~ sianz.. lolx.. but nvm bout him... lolx

after so long.. i finally got his ans le.. hehez... i am so happie.. i cant believe tat this is happening... but i can say tat... i will treasure him lots wor.. hehe... my frenz all very kan jiong lohx.. haha.. den now they noe the ans le they oso happie for mi.. hehez... in happiness now... is this love? hehe

[[missing him]] *luving him*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

sianz

2005-04-19T16:35:00.000+08:00

hmm... sch so boring 2dae.. cos nuthin special in sch 2dae.. lolx.. except for the "why u like tat" programme.. lolx.. it really say wad i feel lohx.. wad kind of person i am... and guess wad... it is so true.. lolx.. later i will type wad it wrote.. lolx... really long but den nvm la... really means wad i am like mahz.. hehe.. den mi after sch went to eat lunch with my classmates at bedok interchange.. lolx.. eat finish le den go home lohx.. see mi these few days so guai.. hehe.. bo bian mahz.. have to lohx.. hehez... hmm.. some of my fren very kan jiong lehz.. lolx.. keep asking mi if he ans le mahz.. lolx.. make mi nervous oso.. den 2dae suddenly in class i blush siax... lolx.. dunno why oso..
hmm.. okie.. this is wad the "why u so like tat" booklet says bout mi

Relationship plays a key role in carisa's life. she tends to be a very trusting individual, she enjoys making new frenz and developing new relationships. she often finds herself involved in many things at once and loves social functions. carisa enjoys encouraging those around her. ppl see her as a person who frequently inspires others.

a loyal fren, carisa is patient and caring when attending to the needs of others. she is usually an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful , harmonious environment. she tends to be quite predictable, sticking with proven, reliable methods of dealing with situations rather than taking chances with a new, unproven approach.

carisa will usually test ideas against proven standards in an effort to be inventive; and can be very creative as she identifies new solutions to problems. she is an original and creative thinker, but acts in a rational way to make sure desired results are achieved in an orderly manner; although she is not afraid to "break the mold" if that appears to be the key to a solution.

becos she cares about how others feel, carisa may feel uncomfortable making decisions that strongly affect others. she typically encourages others to be involved in the decision making process and prefers to work in a team role. others tend to see carisa as agreeable and humble.

carisa, as an advisor, impresses most ppl with her warmth, sympathy and understanding. she possesses a casual, easy poise in most social situations. many ppl will come to her becos she is seen as a gd listener. carisa is very demonstrative and her emotions are clear to those around her. she will not attempt to force her idea on others; in fact, she may be too indirect in expressing her feelings or issuing orders. carisa tends to take critcism of her work as a personal affront. she can be overly tolerant and patient with those who are non-producers. carisa is a true peacekeeper and will work to maintain peace in every circumstance.

carisa possesses the potential to love everyone without expecting much in return. she loves to talk to and about ppl; she wants social intimacy with everyone she meets. carisa may have difficulty being honest about thingss if there is a fear that there will be devastating effects to a relationship, as relationship are extremely important to her. carisa is a great motivator and tells ppl "you can do it". she is loving and exhibits mercy, compassion and empathy to others. carisa prefers to deal with ppl on a personal, intimate basis in a low-pressure situation. she will take advantage of every moment she is given up until the end to get the jobs done. carisa needs personal attention and compliments for assignments well done. while carisa is very stable, she is oso flexible and can fit into almost any environment. she is seen as neighbourly, as she seems to be accepting of others, even if inside she is judging others with the strong convictions that she holds. carisa is family-oriented and she workds towards stability in these relationships. becos her orientation to tasks is low and her ppl orientation is high, she may get trouble following through on completion of tasks. carisa get involved in taking bout wad she wants to do!

woohoo... tat the end of the booklet.. hahaz.. no la.. jus the part on bout mi.. lolx.. very long hor? but really toks bout mi.. lolx..

[[bored]] *waiting for ans*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

sianz

2005-04-18T16:09:00.000+08:00

hmm.. see i 2dae so guai... so early come home le.. hehe.. becos no where to go mahz.. haiyoz.. den come home lo.. somemore raining oso sianz.. not much place to go so end up come home le lohx... hehe.. jus finish bathing and i come onlline le.. hmm.. 2dae de sch okie lo.. three free periods.. lolx.. cos teacher never come mahx.. lolx.. den we all do our own things lohx.. hehe... den during assembly... hehe... tok bout aids... std... haha... all these lohx.. but den hor.. keep us until late... but den nvm la.. haha.. 2dae my time a lot lohx.. lolx... hehe.. den after tat mi and my fren went to tampines to eat lunch.. hehe... lame right? eat le den go home lohx.. lolx... bo bian.. too guai le.. lolx.. no la.. jus kiddin niaz...

hmm.. still waiting for answer.. hmm.. some ppl will understand wad i mean lo.. haiyo.. and u noe hor.. i dun like rush things lo.. so dun always ask mi to ask him the qns lo... haiyoz.. thing must man man lai mahz.. hmm... sianz wor.. i wanna go play game le..

[[bored]] *missing*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

fun?

2005-04-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

woohoo~ jus came home.. lolx... this morning went to run with my nu er[anna].. hehez.. under my blk there de park... den we alll bare foot run siaz.. haha.. keep on stepping on stones... pain siaz.. hahaz.. den after tat we all went to do our cip.. haha.. 2dae not bad wor... we went by the sea shore and pick up many sea shells.. hehez... cos i wanna use it to do sumthing wor.. lolx... hmm.. den after tat we did almost the same thing lohx.. lolx..

after cip.. i pei karen go to bugis to buy present.. hehe.. didnt noe wad to buy lohx.. den in the end she bought a shirt lohx... den after tat we went to meet my er zi lohx.. lolx... walked until tekka mall... lucky i noe where it is arhzz.. but far siaz.. like walk until very long like tat.. sianz.. somemore very hot lohx.. hahaz.. den after tat.. we all meet le den we went back to bugis... lame right? lolx.. den after tat we went to arcade to see my er zi and fren play lohx.. lolx...

den after tat karen went home le.. den mi and er zi and fren went walk walk for a while.. den after tat went to shaw tower there.. hehe.. sit there and tok tok lohx.. den in the end.. bout 8 plus den leave the place lohx.. haha.. my er zi very ke lian arhz.. keep on kena abuse by mie.. hehe.. evil luff.. okie la... late le..

[[headache]] *yawn*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

2005-04-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus back home and jus finish bathin niaz.. hehe.. shiok... this morning went out with my nu er.. we went to east coast park to blow wind.. hehex.. at least we will feel less stressful mahz.. hehez... den we all went there... blow wind.. hehez.. shiok lohx the feeling.. very long dun have this feeling le.. hehe den after tat we went to have mac.. hehe.. we siao de.. keep on eating chilli and mayonnise.. lolx... i think bout 18 packets together lohs.. lolx.. but den very nice lohx.. hehe.. den after tat we from east coast walk to park way lohx.. hehez.... den hor.. really damn hot arhz.. the sun not say very big but den still very hot lohx... wow buay tan han arhz.. haiyox... den after tat we went to the pet shop there to see the dogs... aWwww.... so cute.. lolx.. buay tan han arhz... if onli i could buy one home and keep it as a pet.. i am sure i will love it like hell arhz.. hehe.. cos i loves dogs a lot lohx.. lolx...

den after tat we both went shopping in parkway.. hmm.. one thing i need to say is... parkway got nuthin nice to shop at de... cos hor.. all need money den can de... sian de lohx.. den mi dun have the money den we two sian sian de.. onli managed to buy sweets from mini toons.. lolx... den after tat sianz lohx.. cos raining den we all wanted to take bus back to bedok lehx.. den i forget which bus we should take siaz.. den we two at the bus stop very suay lehz.. got one aunty hor.. take umbrella de hor... idiot de lehz.. keep on using it to poke us... she lucky she is old le hor.. if not i confirm snatch the umbrella form her and smash it on her head arhz.. den worst arhz.. on the bus tat time hor.. got another aunty.. oso idiot arhz.. behind so many ppl.. den hor.. like walk to walk in dun wan to walk in de lehz.. until i "tssk" den hor she move in de lohx... she lucky she oso old le.. if not i kick her le arhz.. all provoke mi at the wrong time of the day.. lolx... and i was already wet becos of the rain le lohx.. idiot de they all.. haiz... and guess wad... we took the wrong bus.. we were supposed to take 196... and i forgot.. we took 197.... headin to jurong east... argh~ den bo bian lohx.. have to wait till familar place den alight den take another bus lohx.. dne hor.. the guy in front of mi keep on turnin around and look at us lehz.. den i pek cek lohx.. i alight the bus tat time... i point middle finger at him.. lolx.. today i so fierce.. lolx.. keep on scolding ppl.. den we took a bus back to eunos.. lolx.. den i went to meet frenz at bugis..
at bugis.. didnt noe tat i will reach so early siaz.. i stand there so long until my leg oso pain arhz.. haiyoz... den i stand there wait for my er zi and his fren to come and SW to come lohx.. haiyo... den after tat we went round bugis to shop lo.. den we sian le den went to suntec.. the skygarden there... i like that place.. cos very nice but den hor 2dae very hot arhz.. den buay tan han lohx.. den my er zi and fren went to play arcade mahz.. den we went there to look for them lohx... den we at there walk walk... see ppl play.. hahaz.. the game there very cute lohx.. some is never see b4 de.. lolx.. den after tat we went to kopitiam there see er zi fren eat.. lolx den we at there chat until very fun lohx.. lolx.. den i use er zi fren de hp took a lot of pic of er zi send to my hp.. lolx.. shld print it out and paste at door... ward off spirits.. lolx.. jus kiddin niaz... den after tat we all take train home lohx.. lolx... actually i pity my er zi fren and er zi.. cos they all keep on kena pull shirt by mie.. lolx.. den er zi worst... kena pinch by mi... bite by mie.. and pulled by mie.. lolx.. poor thing.. nvm la.. he my er zi mahz.. lolx.. anyway i think he used to it le lohx... lolx.. really had a nice time with them lohx.. den mi and er zi like small kid lohx.. play here and there.. lolx... quite fun lohx.. lolx.. hmm.. den after tat we head for home le lohx.. hehe.. dunno whether er zi and fren later will call mi conference a not lehz.. haha..

sianz.. tml got wake up early againz.. cos got cip.. nvm.. at least we can have fun there.. hehe.. i love that place.. i guess i will surely miss tat place when we stop doing cip le bahz.. haiz.. i sure think so lohx... the place very fun..haiz... becos of exams tats why we all need to stop.. cos they are afraid we will nelgect our studies... hmm.. okie la.. dun type le.. my hands very tired le.. hehe..

[[joys]] *tired*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

oUch

2005-04-15T16:17:00.000+08:00

wow.. 2dae oso so suay siaz... 2dae went to sch late cos got practical test.. at least dun need to wake up early.. gd lahz.. hehez.. shiok lohx... and den this mornign i met my fren at the bus stop to go to sch together.. hehez.. den hor.. one of my frenz who happened to be in front of mi more suay ar... got attack by the "wu ya" .. lolx.. si bei funny siaz.. the "wu ya" like step on his head den fly away... lolx... si bei funny arhz.. but a bit scary oso...

2dae during practical test.. at first everything still okie lahz.. den hor.. when i heat the test tube.. i forget siaz.. forget it is hot.. den i go and hold the test tube.. haiz.. now my finer kena burnt.. den now got the blister... haiz... pain siaz.. den hor... for the rest of the practical test my finger keep on pointing out cos very pain den cannot close it.. haiz... so suay arhz... lucky i wash with water arhz.. if not will be more pain arhz.. haiyoz.. den the practical test quite hard lo.. haiz.. scare i fail siaz.. haiz...

after tat den mi and my frenz went to eat mac.. hehez... cos we all hungry mahz... den we at there eat until bout 12 plus den have to go back to sch le lohx.. haiz.. cos got oral mahz... at first i not nervous de lehz.. dunno why suddenly reach there le den become more and more nervous siaz.. haiz.. scary arhz.. lucky the teacher very frenly.. and the teacher even tot i from Guzheng de.. hahaz... which is totally impossible.. lolx.. i dun play guzheng de.. and i am not interested oso.. lolx.. i dun even have a cca lohx.. lolx... tat why like so free.. lolx... haiz.. dunno why oral when i start toking i will get so nervous siaz.. haiz... nvm.. used to it le.. hehe... sianz lehz... now type this my finger oso pain arhz.. haiz.. used to painness le... haiz... i guess i am back to the "bo tai bo ji wanna cry " dayz le.. haiz...

[[haiz]] *oUcH*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

bored...

2005-04-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

wow... 2dae sch so bored.. haiyo.... dunno why siaz... everything always bout the same.. wow.. sianz siaz.. haiyo.. den hor.. so many test and exams.. haiz.. so boring lohx.. when will exams stop coming to mi.. very sian and tiring de lehz.. haiz.. hope tat i can jus overcome the stress lohx... hope someone is there to help mi too... hehe... hmm... den 2dae de study hour so many ppl never go siaz.. lolx... nvm la.. den i at there keep on playing hp.. lolx...

after study hour.. i went to meet my er zi.. hehe.. we all meet at bugis lo.. our lao di fa.. hahaz.. with his frenz oso lohx... den we all walk around bugis lohx.. we all pei the meng to sell his fone lohx.. den after tat we all go home le lohx.. hmm. i wanna watch tv le.. hehe...

[[bored]] *sianz*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

bored

2005-04-13T19:43:00.000+08:00

wow.. another boring day... 2dae like very suay lehz.. forget to bring pencil case tos ch... den go sch den realised.. den i first lesson got test le lohx.. den have to look for pens and all the construction set.. wow.. wad a bad start of the day le... den after tat during english lesson... suay again lo.. got called out by teacher to do a conversation lohx... for preparation of oral exams lohx.. wow.. den she asked mi a very hard question lohx... make until i dunno how to ans siaz.. somemore i nv think of those kind of qns b4 de lohx.. wow sianz de siaz.... den hor.. another one suay de is hor.... during chi class.. i oso kena picked out by teacher to read the passage.. wow.. really is bad day arhz.. haiz.. sianz...

after study hour.. i went to tampines with my nuer[anna] hehez.. i pei her go and buy book loh... buy finish le oso dun feel like going out den we all go and walk walk lohx... hehez.... very long nv like tat tok le.. yeahz.. hehez.. tok bout lots of things lohx... hmm.. den after tat cos we dun wanna go home so early so we from tamp take bus 18 to bedok inter.. den take 66 home.. lolx.. bo liao hor? bo bian mahz.. we dun wanna go home so early.. hehez.. den i now watching tv and typing this at the same time.. lolx.. dun tok le.. show start le.. te show very nice... hehez

[[stressed?]] *watching tv*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

yawn

2005-04-12T17:44:00.000+08:00

*yAwNs* jus woke up from a short nap.. lolx.. very very long nv have a nap le.. cos always when i wake up from naps i will not well de... jus now is feeling very tired so tot rest a while will dop and i end up having a nap.. lolx... now feel a bit hungry le.. hehe.. later go look for food to eat.. hehez.. hmm.. now eating bread le.. lolx...

hmm... sch so boring todae...but at least time passes very fast... hehez... in sch got nuthin better to do... sianz.. hahaz... haiz...

yesterdae went out with my erzi... den andy came along.. my mummy and daddy oso went... we went to bugis to eat dinner and pei my er zi go fix fone.. lolx... very funny arhz.. my er zi keep on kena pinch by mi de wor.. nvm de lahz.... he got used to it le.. hehe.. i pinch his face until so cute... lolx.. cant help it... cos his eyes really very small.. lolx.. den i pei them go arcade see them play maximun tuning lo.. haha.. both of them quite li hai de wor.. lolx.. den i stand there see lo.. hehez... den after tat... went to meet my mummy.... den we sit outside moose burger there and chat... hehez... chat until quite long le den i went to eat my dinner at mac.. hehez... den er zi and andy went upstair lo... wow.. at mac there saw a woman she wear very very short de skirt siaz.. dun say i bian tai la.. but my mummy keep on saying she "run light" le... can see her undies.. lolx.. say until we all keep on luffing.. hehez... after tat we went to arcade to see them play maximun tuning againz... lolx... den got one guy he keep on switching the control.. wow.. hear le oso du lan arhz... idiot de lehz.. cannot stop de lehz.. very sickening...

after tat was bout 9.45 pm le.. have to go home le.. hehe.. i bid mummy and daddy gd bye den andy and er zi accompany mi to the Mrt station..on the way there... er zi go and pinch my face.. lolx.... den he say mi very cute *shyz*... den i pinch his face oso lohx.. lolx... but den i think he used to it le lohx.. lolx.. when i reach i saw the plate... 9 mins to pasir ris... wow sianz lehz.. den they two pei mi chat outside the control station.. hehez... until bout 4 mins den i went in.. lolx.. when reach eunos.. i waited for the bus so long.. haiz.. sianz lehz... nvm la.. used to it le lahz.. lolx... anyway.. i really enjoyed yestedae lohx.... but den i dun think i can go out anymore like last time le.. cos my mom say i cannot go out much le... cos exams is around the corner le... haiz...

[[hungry]] *bored*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

wad am i doing?

2005-04-11T16:04:00.000+08:00

haiz.. dunno wad am i doing arhz.. why do i keep showing my temper to my family...? haiz.. i dunno why lahz.. i really wanna stop it lohx... haiz.. but den why do i have tat big mouth brother at home.. which seem to interupt my mother and mi de conversation which often leads mi to wanna show my temper lox... sometimes i really wish tat my brother can jus go away.. and dun come back... he damn irritating lo... jus becos he is elder.. doesnt means tat everything he do is correct lo.. haiz.. but guess wad.. my parents always side him lo.. i tell u if this continue.. one day i confirm will go crazy lohx.. but i really hope tat this day will never come lo.. cos i dunno wad will i do... haiz....

wow.. 2dae go sch not bad wor.. seem like very fast den pass by le... 2dae CME period got some dumbo come in and tok bout wad DISC... not the normal disc... but each letter stands for sumthing.. forgot wad it was le... lolx.. den ask us do a paper work.. den after oral exam start le lo.. wow.. sianz lehz.. the teacher is miss carol.. den she ask a lot of qns lo.. haiz.. buay tan han arhz.. diff style de lohx.. haiz.... den after finish le... mi wait for SW den we all take bus back lohx... haha.. now waiting for my er zi to reach home le... den later we go eat dinner and pei him fix his fone lohx.. hehez... sianz somemore.. now raining...

i guess i going back to the old mi le.. the bo tai bo ji wanna cry the feeling le lohx.. haiz.. i think i really hurt someone a lot.. i dunno wad to do lahz.. haiz... confused now lo

*warning* I HATE PPL TO HIT MY STOMACH... SO U BETTER DUN... I MAY RESOLVE TO SLAPPING PPL.. AND I REALLY MEAN IT.. TO THOSE WHO HAVE THE HABIT OF HITTING MY STOMACH... THIS IS A VERY IMPT WARNING

[[confused]] *gastric pain*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

sun burnt

2005-04-10T18:34:00.000+08:00

*ouch ouch* my skin and face hurts... i think i kena sun burnt.. damn it... now skin very pain and red.. *ouch* hmm.. 2dae... very wasted... cos 2dae they didnt managed to go out to sail.. cos there wasnt any wind.. sad case siaz.. the weather was really very hot lohx.. haha.. but den thankz to the swimming pool.. we all had fun there instead.. hehez.. cos while waiting to see weather they can go sailing a not... we really bored.. den we were playing with kevin.. lolx.. den hor.. jovin asked kevin to push us into the swimming pool... lolx.. den end up all of us in the water lohx.. den at first we start swimming a little den the security guard come out den say we all cannot swim.. cos we all wearing t shirt and short mahz.. lolx.. den not allowed mahz.. den we all sit on top lohx... den we waited for the security guard to go le den we all go back swimming againz.. lolx... very shiok lohx.. very long nv swim le.. hehezx... den i dive into the water.. suay arhz.. hit until my nose so many time.. cos i dive too deep le.. lolx... si bei pain arhz.. hahaz.. den we all from bout 10 plus den swim until 12 plus lohx.. haha.. shiok siaz... very long nv swim le.. hehez... love the place so much.. but den hor... haiz.. cant stay there for long.. cos exams going to start soon... den by then we all have to stop our CIP le... i am sure i will miss the ppl there.. especially kevin.. lolx.. tat small little boy... who seem to be sticking onto us le.. lolx... so so so sure tat i will for sure miss them..

after tat.. mi and my nuers went to eat lohx.. haha.. den eat finish le.. den we all go tm to shop for a while lohx.. haha... shop until bout 3 plus den mi and my laogong[karen] went to bedok.. hehez... to eat cha ye dan.. lolx.... tea leaf eggs? lolx.. haha.. den saw my fren kai.. lolx... so shiok.. i kicked him.. lolx.. but not very hard la.. cos i was bout to fall oso.. lolx.. lolx.. den went to mac to eat oso... lolz.. den we head back for home.. hehez.. and here i am now.... using the comp.. while my face still red and pain.. lolx... okie la... it is time for mi to go update my friendster le.. lolx..

[[sunburnt]] *ouch*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiaotoott *=-

rotting mahz

2005-04-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

haizyo... i going to rot le... so sianz.. argh~! buay tan han arhz.. so sianz.. 2dae whole day like at home like tat... so sianz.. canot tan han siaz.. lucky later i going to go out arhz.. if not i confirm will rot like siao de.. lucky jus now mom on the dvd "kungfu" to watch lo.. although watch b4 le... but den watch again oso nvm la.. haha.. nuthin better to do mahz.. den jus now in my room do a bit of hw.. den here i am now lohx... online chatting with my frenz lohx.. but den not much ppl oso.. haiz

a gd relationship doesnt really mean a gd ending.. haiz.. got this quote from my fren's nick de... and i really agree with it loh... haiz... i noe i hurt him.. but i dunno why.. he like wont give up on mie.. maybe it is really tat he regret le lohx.. haiz.. maybe bahz.. i dunno lahz.. i dun wanna worry so much le... the more i worry.. the more i will tend to let in to him cos of sympathy.. nahz.... better not.. haiz.. sianz..

oh ya.. i got a second acc in friendster le.. kindly add mi at xiiaotoott@hotmail.com

signing off
-=* xiiao toott a.k.a Miss^sad *=-

breakup

2005-04-08T18:17:00.000+08:00

break le break le... i think this is best for us la... i mean like.. no point being together when i got no feeling for him.. right..? yeahz.... at least i dun wanna hurt him too much lo.... this is the best lo.. b4 it gets worst.. right? i mean like.... i really dun wanna hurt him lohx... i noe tat now he hates mi... hate mie alll u wan.. cos i am the one who hurt u... but i wanna say sorrie....

hmm... 2dae sch gt speech day arhz.. sianz siaz.. so hot arh the place.. buay tan han arhz.... dunno why like no wind de lohx.. den the air is hot de lohx.. wow buay tan han siaz... haiyoz...sweat like machiam bathing like tat.. lolx... but den hor.. i find tat choir improved a lot le wor... lolx.. now we noe wad they are singing le.. lolx.. gdgd... improved le.. hmm... jus now long ago den come back niaz...

hmm.. b4 going to speech day.. i went to have lunch with all my nuers and my laopos and laogongs.. lolx.. we went to eat chicken cutlet rice.. hehez... nice wor.. very long nv eat le.. at least now get to eat le lohx.. hehe.. cos often is lazy to go there to eat lohx.. lolx.. unless is on the way den go there and eat lohx... lalala~ den after tat eat finish le still very early lo.. den we all go to reservoir there to sit and chat lohx.. at first not very hot de lehz.. we all sit down... den not long ago hor... the sun come out loh..wow.. is really the very hot lo.. lolx.. den we all buay tan han le.. den we all go to sch de library lohx.. but den suay.. the library never open.. sianz.. den we all end up go to my classroom to chat and sit down lo.. somemore got fan.. shiok siaz.. lolx.. den i at there draw my hands lo.. lolx.. nuthin better to do mahz.. haiyoz... den after tat went to the speech day le lo.. hahaz...

[[relived]] *haiz*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad a.k.a xiiao toott *=-

jus another day

2005-04-07T17:27:00.000+08:00

hmm.. so sianz siaz 2dae.. haiyo... nuthin much to say oso lahz.. everything the same oso lohx.. onli one thing gd is.. y SS teacher never come den the test is postponed.. lolx.. yeahz~! the best thing.. lolx .. other than tat oso not much lo.. 2dae bluff PE teacher.. lolx.. say i stomach pain den no need PE.. haha.. shiok lohx.. but den... oso not bad la... can rest.. lolx.. while tat time.. mi and SW sit there den draw my hand.. lolx.. draw many nice nice de thingy lo.. too bad have to wash off lohx.. lolx.. bo bian... cannot walk around with those things on my hand mahz.. somemore is a lot lo.. so will look a bit messy lo.. lolx.. den jus now bathe de time already wash off all le.. hehez..

haiz.. sianz arhz.. i now very confused arh... dunno why siaz.. haiz... anyway.. i bit angry now lo.. one of my pri sch fren go tell my mom bout my bf... f**k her siaz.. i dislike her siaz... argh~! suan le suan le~! argh~! anyway.. i really confused arhz.. haiz... sianz...

[[confused]] *haiz*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad *=-

wow... sianz

2005-04-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

hmm.. 2dae de sch very sianz arhz... nuthin much to do oso..... but den at least 2dae de lesson like pass very fast loh.. wow.. POA hor.. unno how to do siaz.. i do le.. but den cannot get answer lehz.. nvm la.. if really cannot get ans den copy from PL tml lohx... lolx...yeahz.... 2dae no study hour.. lolx.. cos got speech day rehearsal ma.. lolx.. den after sch mi and my nu ers go bedok inter to eaty lunch den went to the library.. lolx.. my laogong[karen] hor.. first to fnish the food.. den she play with the plate.. the cup.. hahaz.. buay tan han ar.. but den nvm la.. at least have a bit of fun mahz.. lolx... buay tan han arhz...

haiz.... 2dae never contact him at all lox... haiz.. dunno why lehz.. he busy or wad? dunno him la.. haiz.... 2dae spent my whole day msging my son.. lolx.. my er zi.. lolx.. very funny lohx... dunno why message him until very fun.. lolx... hmm.. sianz le lahz.. go do other things le lohx.. sianz...

[[ai shui nehz?]] *confused*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad *=-

sports day

2005-04-05T19:43:00.000+08:00

wow... 2dae had sports day.. lolx.. all of us released at 12.30.. shiok siaz.. lolx... but den hor.. a bit angry and pek cek lohx.. u noe why..? tat stupid MR wee la.. my chem teacher... cos we all use the chem lab den got goggles lost lo... den he took our maths lesson jus to find and search our bag lo... wow lao.. idiot de lo.. i rush my maths hmwk like siao den end up dun have... idiot de.. tat stupid aqua.. see him le i feel like vomiting arhz... i really dun like him lo.. i think he dun even noe how to teach ar.... he teach u right.... den u dun understand hor.. he wont explain againz de lo.. den got one time he copy all the ans on the board den we all haven copy finish den he rub off le lohx.. idiot de lahz... dun even noe how to teach... go back to vietnam la.... tat idiot... waste our time loh 2dae.. argh~!

hmm.. den after sch went to eat "QiJi" haha.. 2dae change eat laksa.. haha.. nice lohx.. hehe.. den we were late for the sport days but den nvm la... still got a lot of ppl still haven go yet mahz.. lolx.. den we all sitt at the top.. until cannot tah han den we all go below to sit lo.. at least gt a clear view of the ppl running.. lolx... and oso the cheer leading.. hmm.. starting to feel tat strivers really didnt do well this yr lo.. dunno why the cheer so nice but den yet.. didnt win anything.. haiz.. sad case lo... haiyoz... think nvm de la.. haha..

wow.. so sianz sia... tml still needa go sch... haha... bored le lehz.. how... but den one thing i will never do is to skip sch siaz.. i duno why i will never skip sch lehz... haha.. cos i too guai le mahz.. haha *ahem ahem*.. oh ya.. i really hope things can be different with mi and him now.. dunno why siaz.. those who noe mi well will understand wad i mean.. lolx...

[[tired]] *confused*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad *=-

parents back le

2005-04-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

hmm.. my parents back le.. hmm... dunno whether it is a gd thing or a bad thing nehz? one.. i am not used tat my parents are back le.. cos i got used to the life where it is onli mi and my bro mahz... den hor... now more noise at home le... a bit not used to le... and when they not around.. i could go out till late late.. but den now canot le.. hehez.. a bit not used to it lohx.. but den anothet thing is.. the house very dirty arhz.. den somemore i oso lazy to go and clean the place.. cos most of the time i am not home mahz.. lolx.... den parents come back le at least gt sumone who can help mi wash the clothes and keep the place clean...

hmm.. 2dae de weather very nice lo.. rainning loh.. sometimes a bit cold wor.. hehez.. the best weather to slp lohx.. but den bo bian mahz.. cos in sch so cannot slp lohx.. lolx.. after sch i went to my laogong[karen] house... hehe.. go there do hmwk lo... with yvette oso.. haha.. my divorced laopo.. hmm.. we went there den we had lots of fun lohx... haha.. alot of laughters.. lolx... den we had fun lo.. do lots of stupid things oso.. lolx.. tat is us.. the stupid... funny us.. lolx... too cute le.. lolx.. i noe u all buay tah han le.. lolx...

hmm.. can see the changes in him le bahz? a bit onli lohx.. haiyoz.. i think he now treasure mi den more he used to be lohx.. but den i still a bit angry with him for wad he did lohx.. haiz.. he threw our neoprint away.. when we haven even break tat time.. wow.. i hear he throw le den i break with him de lohx.. really very angry lohx.. haiz... but thanks to his frenz lo.... his fren told mi bout his temper all these.. den after he throw le den noe wat is regret.. hmm.. i am glad he told mi tat lox... haiz.. hope he change his temper lohx.. but can see a slight changes le lohx.. hope more can come..

[[loving him]] *hungry*

signing off
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patch le;..

2005-04-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

yesterdae night karen ton at my house.. hehez... cos she cannot too late go home.. if not have to ton ma.. den end up she come my house and ton lohx.. hehez... sorry have to make her wait outside the door for so long.. cos i fell aslp.. lolx... haiyoz.. so sorrie.. haiyoz... mi too tired le mahz.. bo bian.. cannot blame.. lolx... den this morning i had a hard time to wake her up arhz.. have to smash her butt siaz... haha.. smash until very hard den she managed to wake up lohx.. hehez... den we all went for the CIP together lohx... haha.. go there forget to take out watch... now my hand the colour a bit weird le... hahaz... got the watch de mark there.. sianz arhz... hmm.. den after tat we all went to eat Qiji... hehez.. my favourite food... hehez...

mie and him patch le... this morning lo.. he call mi and say a lot of things lohx.. but i quite shocked lo.. he said a lot of things tat he have never say to mi b4... quite shocked lohx.. den end up oso patch lo.. dunno i did the correct thing a not lo.. haiz.. hope thins can get better bahz...

[[hurt]] *confused*

signing off
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haiz... broken againz

2005-04-02T19:49:00.000+08:00

last night i went out ton with my fren againz.. hehez.. tml mom coming back le so this is the last time i can ton outside lohx.. haiz.. sianz arhz... nvm la.. at least we had fun lohx... we went to my house area here de place there and chat chat and sit sit lo.. haha.. they all hor.. keep on bullying mi de lehz.. buay tan han arhz... idiot de.. haiz.. den hor.. we went to SW there to meet her.. hehe.. den we at her there chat... den we all chat bout until 3 plus.. den we all walk home lo.. lolx... at my house there.. den we all chat and play until bout 5 plus... ahha.. den all end up den slp.. lolx

hmm... break with him le... nvm la.. used to it le lahz.. haiz.. suan le bahz..

[[sianz]] *hurt*

signing off
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whoo~

2005-04-01T19:49:00.000+08:00

woohoo~ later going ton with my frenz.. hehez.., now waiting for the time to come den i go and meet them lo... meeting them at 9 lohx.. haiyoz.. now going to rot le.. lolx.. i hungry.... and bored.. haiyo.. hmm.. 2dae de sch si bei sianz siaz.. but den very relaxing.. most of the lesson the teacher never come loh.. end up onli got two period of lesson niaz lohx.. haiyo... lame right? if i early noe den i dun go sch le loh.. haiyo.. waste my time there niaz.. haha.. all the time u can find mi slpin lohx.. cos i very tired mahz.. haha.. den my frenz say mi piggy.. cos got chance jiu slp le... hehe... den 2dae got maths quiz lo.. haiyo.. i realised some things bout my classmate.. lolx... guess not nice to say it here lohx.. haiyo... hmm.. den after sch went to tm to eat lohx.. lolx.. with my two nuer lohx.. hehe... the thai pineapple rice not bad wor.. hehe../ and somemore hor.. a lot lo.. quite nice.. hehe.. den after tat i pei them go and buy watch lohx.. hehe.. den after tat go home le loh.. but den one of my nu er go my house lo.. haha.. do homework 2gether.. but den after tat i end up slping.. lolx.. cos really is tired mahz.. lolx... haiyoz.. i going to rot soon le.. waiting for the time to pass.. lalalal~

haiz.. things between us very hot lo.. everyday a argument is inavoidable... dunno why siaz.. haiz.. hope thing will get better.. and i really do hope lohx.. haiz...

[[ai zhe ta]] *confused*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad *=-

full siaz

2005-03-31T16:48:00.000+08:00

wow shiok arhz sch.. hehez.. cos a lot of teacher went for the sec 3 camp mahz.. den end up like not much lessons oso.. hehez.. yeah.. so gd.. haha.. den most of the time can find mi slping in class lo.. haha.. cos got no teacher teaching mahz.. lalala~ 2dae in class... we all go and play matchstick.. lolx.. very smelly lohx.. den hor.. we all keep on playing den the smell very strong lohx.. haiyo... den becos we scare teacher will noe tat we all play.. den they decided to use the body spray to cover the smell.. lolx.. but den in the end.. the smell got worst lohx.. some even choke becos of the smell lohx.. eeee... not nice de lohx.. haha.. regret le.. but den when teacher come in she also ask wad is tat smell.. lol.. i think she noe wad happen bahz.. lolx.. den after tat she jus continue to teacher her lesson lohx

after sch we all went to tampines to eat yaku.. hehez..nice lehz.. got addicted le lahz.. haha... the fresh toast and the kaya bread very nice lo.. may not lok like eat le will full... but den i wrong le.. haha.. eat le si bei full wor... somemore the ice milo very nice wor.. hehez.. i like siaz.. hmm.. mi jus got home niaz.. hehe... bought sweets from mini toons.. hehe.. *yUmyUm* nice nice.. okie la.. time for mi to call him le..

[[confused]] *full*

signing off
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2005-03-30T16:43:00.000+08:00

another day passes.. 2dae dunno why keep on so giddy siaz.. haiz.. dunno wad happen la.. sianz lohx.. haiz... den 2dae is tiff de bday wor.. lolx... den we all bought a mini skirt for her to wear wor.. haha.. the skirt not bad de wor.. quite nice.. haha.. den tiff gt try to wear.. quite cute wor.. lolx... hmm.. den hor the birthday cake we gave her veru cute lo.. u noe thoise small small de chocolate cake ma? we all bought two.. den put sweet on top.. den actually want to use matchstick as candles de.. but den end up nv use lohx.. haha... thx to those ppl who helped us oso wor.. lalala~
den 2dae after sch is actually wanna go to tamp library to help out as cip de.. but den found out tat we need teacher letter den can.. sianz.. waste of time onli.. den after tat we wentr home lo.. den jus now meet chicken and fish.. for a while.. den went to sch there to meet SW to pei mi go eat dinner lo..
haiz... why do things have to be so difficult in life? cant things be settled easily? wont things be better? haiz.. i duno la.. jus hope tat we two can stop arguing and stop having those toks...

[[confused]] *min lu de xiao nuhai*

signing off
-=* Miss^sad *=-